Reading about a dancing mania that struck Germany centuries ago.It sounds very interesting.Feel a need to buy some colouring books and watch documentaries,just to colour pretty things would be great.I'm being gentle and very kind on myself because my high of late is moving on,and various other awful battles.Its always a bit hellish when you become hum drum again,though I'm liking some equilibrium.I feel at the moment though that I'm not really able to express my creativity like I use too and I think...

Ordinary life does not interest me. I seek only the high moments. I am in accord with the surrealists, searching for the marvelous. I want to be a writer who reminds others that these moments exist; I want to prove that there is infinite space, infinite meaning, infinite dimension. But I am not always in what I call a state of grace. I have days of illuminations and fevers....

“I want my own will, and I want
simply to be with my will,
as it goes toward action.
And in the silent, sometimes hardly moving times,
when something is coming near,
I want to be with those who know
secret things or else alone...
I want to unfold.
I don’t want to be folded anywhere,
because where I am folded,
there I am a lie.”
― Rainer Maria Rilke

Well I've started to feel much better,alive again,I...

Well I've been listening to lots of music by my fellow Australians,Matt Corby,Dean Lewis,Vance joy I seem to only like Australian music at the moment.There must be truth to the notion that we inherit the spirit of the country that were born into and that's why this music is resonating for me.I am busy looking for a leather satchel,I have longed for this Tusting saddle bag for a long time,but the shipping is too hefty so I'm going to get a sweet little leather satchel from florentine.I also want...

Well there have been lovely rainy days,my favourite type of day,but things have been so dulled and awful lately,nothing really lifting me up and problems.I have still been reading "The Red haired girl from the bog',I'm now reading about her time at Brú na Bóinne.Despite this I dreamt about Russians all night,I found Russian chocolates in the dream,Russians were all about.I do try to return to my love of Russia which I have felt since I was a little girl,but I don't feel that great pull and...