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Posted 06-27-2008 at 01:03 PM by ScranBarre
Good afternoon, my fellow forum friends! I suppose I should start off by apologizing for being so distant socially on here over the past 7-10 days, especially since immediately after I posted my last blog in which I was going through a rather deep depression. I've had several wonderful people (you know who you are) inquiring almost daily about my whereabouts and my condition, and I truly do appreciate the concern on my behalf.
I suppose the biggest struggle in my life right now continues to be with my faith. I believe Christ died on the cross for my sins and that we should all be eternally indebted to him for his selfless sacrifice. I feel we should, as humans, go around trying to make this world the best it can be for everyone else, not merely ourselves. Life is beautiful, and we need to make every day good to the last drop. I've finally come to accept myself for who I am after years of trying to rebel against what I deemed to be an abomination. Nothing I have tried to do or will be able to try to do can change my sexual orientation, so why fight it? All I can do is live my life trying to help others and hope that God has mercy on my soul for my romantic transgressions. If not, then I'll pay the price on Judgment Day.
Thanks especially to I LOVE NORTH CAROLINA and Go Ne for your continued support and prayers. I'm sorry again I've been so distant as of late, but that was mostly just because I've been embarrassed; I hate it when people feel sorry for me, but when I'm depressed writing my thoughts and feelings helps me to undergo a catharsis of sorts.
You guys are all great!
I suppose the biggest struggle in my life right now continues to be with my faith. I believe Christ died on the cross for my sins and that we should all be eternally indebted to him for his selfless sacrifice. I feel we should, as humans, go around trying to make this world the best it can be for everyone else, not merely ourselves. Life is beautiful, and we need to make every day good to the last drop. I've finally come to accept myself for who I am after years of trying to rebel against what I deemed to be an abomination. Nothing I have tried to do or will be able to try to do can change my sexual orientation, so why fight it? All I can do is live my life trying to help others and hope that God has mercy on my soul for my romantic transgressions. If not, then I'll pay the price on Judgment Day.
Thanks especially to I LOVE NORTH CAROLINA and Go Ne for your continued support and prayers. I'm sorry again I've been so distant as of late, but that was mostly just because I've been embarrassed; I hate it when people feel sorry for me, but when I'm depressed writing my thoughts and feelings helps me to undergo a catharsis of sorts.
You guys are all great!
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Thanks, and I'm happy you are feeling better now. Have a good dayPosted 06-27-2008 at 01:24 PM by Go Ne
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Hello my friend! You have nothing to be embarrassed about. What I feel about you is not pity but concern. I know you have been struggling. I think GoNe feels the same, we care about you!Posted 06-27-2008 at 02:55 PM by I LOVE NORTH CAROLINA
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Yes we sure doPosted 06-27-2008 at 09:58 PM by Go Ne
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I'm also glad you're feeling better; I just discovered your blog today.
I find it so offensive that "God fearing" Christians do nothing but preach hate against gay people. Your sexual orientation should have nothing to do with who you are as a person, and I'm more sorry than I can tell you that your parents didn't accept you as you really are. I believe all good people go to Heaven, whether they're Jewish, Muslim, Christian, whatever. I refuse to believe in a God who could be merciless enough to consign people to Hell just because they're Hindu, gay, eat pork, etc.Posted 06-30-2008 at 08:12 PM by SandyCo 
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Glad you are feeling better.
Haven't seen you in the Jersey forum ranting about Jersey sprawl into PA in a while!! Miss reading and responding to your posts.
Be well and be true to your self
~~~njkate~~~Posted 07-08-2008 at 12:23 PM by njkate
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I never knew there were blogs on this forum. SB I can relate to some of your fears and hatred stemming from your sexual orientation. I struggled for the first 24 years of my life thinking I was a monster for liking other guys. I didn't understand it....I didn't chose to like other guys. I tried to make myself like girls and even dated them. When I was 20 I started experimenting with guys and felt really worthless and dirty afterwards. I felt like I was committing the biggest sins and thought I was a monster. Now that I'm in my lower 30's I've come to terms with who I am and the fact I am attracted to other guys. I'm a pretty religious fellow myself so it's been hard to struggle through all the feelings and self hatred I had at one time. But I've come to realize that God has made us the way we are. Sadly some of the so called Christians have taken old bible verses and have condemned us. They seem to gain joy making our lives horrible and making us feel like crap for being who we are. They ignore old bible verses about killing your child if they talk back to you, not eating shellfish, not working on Sundays, allowed to have slaves and beating them just as long as you don't hurt them too much, having all women remain silent partners only there to please their spouses, and not planting different crops in the same field. Funny how these so called Christians pick and chose what they want to follow or condemn isn't it? But sadly all types of minorities have had to fight for their rights and equality and we seem to be the last to be fighting for our lives/rights. It will get better and science is slowly proving homosexuality is something a person is born with. I believe that God wants us to live our lives treating those around us well and not killing, stealing, harming others, belittling others, etc. Why should we be made to feel like second rate citizens just because we love other people of the same gender? It's silly and I'm sure God looks down on earth and is disgusted with how some religious people use 'his word' to discriminate, hate, and make other suffer. I'll admit there are still times when I wish I'd be straight as my life would be so much easier. But we are who we are and there are tons of great gay individuals in this world. We are good family members, practice God's word, do volunteer work, donate to charity, help others daily, treat strangers well, go out of way to help those who need assistance, and make a difference in many other's lives. Yes there are evil bad gay people out there but there are plenty of evil straight people. It's all about who you are inside and how you treat others. I'm sorry you have been having some depression from this subject and I think many others go through it too (I've been there and still prone to it). Stay strong and be proud of the good things you do in your daily life. We all make mistakes and sometimes do things we regret but God will forgive us and he knows if we are truly a good person at heart. Wow I'm rambling so that's all I just saw your blog and wanted to respond. Keep fighting for our rights and remind others that we are normal folks who just want to be treated equallly and just like everybody else!Posted 07-14-2008 at 04:59 PM by R.J. MacReady
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You might look for a "reconciling in Christ" Lutheran Church, meaning accepting of openly gay members. We have several gay members in our congregation. One of them belongs to a gay band in Denver, and they played for us one Sunday. It was awesome.
All the best!Posted 07-27-2008 at 09:59 PM by Katiana
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I think Scranbarre that you should find a church that loves you as you are.........Whatever that chuch may be.
Then you will be aware that God loves everyone, and he loves you too...of course.
Is the Lutheran Church more accepting then off you go.........
We have many different religions, I am sure God accepts all........he knows we are not perfect and that everyone must worship in their own ways.......
God, all knowing.......
I hope your ok today. Gosh, lots happening here on the NEPA threads today.......
Your faith will be good enough for God......things will be fine. Hope you are posting soon......Posted 09-06-2008 at 12:38 PM by Summering
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The Truth Will Set You Free
As one of Jehovah's witnesses,I don't hate you,and neither does god.Having said that what God does hate is the Acting out those unnatural desires.He also hates Lying,stealing,adultry,drunkedness,covetness and other traits.We all have to fight desires of the flesh.He also does not condone the nationalistic wars,Genocide,and all the violence that is happened theese days.Jesus died on a Torture Stake.Not on a cross as many other Religions teach! Also Jesus instructed his followers to go and teach others about God,s Kingdom Government.Which will soon rule the earth. After the Judgement day,the earth will be turned into a Paradise!It will take 1000 years! I suggest that you study the bible with one of Jehovah's witnesses. Jesus said"This good news of the Kingdom will be preached in all the inhabited earth, for a witness to all the nations,then the end will come" That prophesy for all parctical purposes has and continues to be fulfilled by Jehovah's Witnesses. in all the nations,even in countries under Ban! Nothing can stop this good news.Just think of the blessings of Gods Kingdom--no more sickness or death,consequently no need for doctors,hospitals,or funerals or cemeteries. Pure air and water, no more poverty,no more wars or violence. Those are a few things that will take place. Perfect peace in a New Paradise earth! Oh I almost forgot,The Dead will be Resurected . Jesus performed many miracles to demonstrate some of the things that will take place Under Kingdom Rule! So lift your head up and smile and hopefull you too will make the effort to take in accurate knowledge of Jehovah and Jesus and learn more by studying God,s word. By the way the Jehovah Witnesses give Bible Studies Free of Charge! Yes Free and they will never ask u for money! The bible says" You received free,so give free"
Wishing you the Very BestPosted 12-11-2008 at 12:26 AM by Michaelt12341
Updated 12-11-2008 at 12:42 AM by Michaelt12341
