This started as my travel log. (We've been traveling the USA from Seattle, WA since Labor Day '08.) My husband has a great website showing the highlights and his commentaries on the places we've been and the things we've done. (View via my profile home page.)
I found that while discovering the country, I was also finding myself. I am learning what to keep, and what to drop -- or chisel away. I don't mind sharing; maybe you will learn something from my lessons, too.
Then came Bigun, my Cocker-Beagle, my newest guru. He's got his own category in the Blog, and an album on my profile.
You are welcome to what I have, good and bad, and leave messages as you like, but please be kind. I, too, am still "in training."
I found that while discovering the country, I was also finding myself. I am learning what to keep, and what to drop -- or chisel away. I don't mind sharing; maybe you will learn something from my lessons, too.
Then came Bigun, my Cocker-Beagle, my newest guru. He's got his own category in the Blog, and an album on my profile.
You are welcome to what I have, good and bad, and leave messages as you like, but please be kind. I, too, am still "in training."
Working in the Void
Posted 07-31-2009 at 05:11 AM by LookinForMayberry
Not long ago, a well-intentioned friend pointed out my hole in the middle -- and I'd thought just the knowing had filled it, but I was wrong. Not only does it "go right through" (like the children's song about the donut), but it is cavernous. 
Seeking help, I turned to Zen Master Thich Nhat Hanh's "Mindful Living" audiobook, downloaded from my library. When he got to his description of true love, my tears flowed.
My loves do not give me freedom, nor joy. Perhaps that is why I avoid contact, and become so irritated with people. Maybe. I think I still have a long way to journey before I find my answers.
But, as I am on a journey now, I can think of no better time to embark on this spiritual journey, and learn the ways of the Buddha, to loving kindness, and beyond.
Thankfully, my husband has committed to learning the mindful practice with me, so this is yet another journey we will share.
Praise God, Buddha, and Life.

Seeking help, I turned to Zen Master Thich Nhat Hanh's "Mindful Living" audiobook, downloaded from my library. When he got to his description of true love, my tears flowed.
My loves do not give me freedom, nor joy. Perhaps that is why I avoid contact, and become so irritated with people. Maybe. I think I still have a long way to journey before I find my answers.
But, as I am on a journey now, I can think of no better time to embark on this spiritual journey, and learn the ways of the Buddha, to loving kindness, and beyond.

Thankfully, my husband has committed to learning the mindful practice with me, so this is yet another journey we will share.
Praise God, Buddha, and Life.

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I congratulate you that you are seeking ways to overcome your pain and you should be so happy that your husband wants to support your quest.
I am not a particularly religious person, but at a similar time in my life 1 cortinthians.13 hit me in the face like a cold fish because I was so self-righteous. It really forced me to think of actually how much of my pain was caused by others and how much was caused by me. Look it up online in a multiple translation version and I hope it helps you in your quest.
Different solutions work for different people. Don't be afraid to try any of them, but just realize that nothing is going to be pain free. There is no way to avoid that in the end you will have to face yourself in the mirror and experience your anger and pain and whatever guilt you have from your reactions. Our whole lives we are walking uphill dragging a chain behind us and we attach every slight, or pain or angry feeling to it. It becomes heavier and heavier until we finally fall to our knees in submission. All we have to do is stand up, drop the chain, and walk away. It is really that simple, but it is hard to believe. That is what brings wisdom to us in our old age. I am still on my personal journey also and there are days I would rather stay in bed all day than carry that burden one more foot. I did drop the chain, but now you could probably say I carry a basket.
My prayers are with you for your personal success.Posted 08-01-2009 at 12:49 AM by yukiko11
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1 Corinthians 13
Love
If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing. Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.Posted 08-01-2009 at 04:38 AM by LookinForMayberry






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