Well, after such a long period I'm back on here again.

I kind of know that I'm not gonna get any feedback to this blog, especially compared to that lot I used to get on AT, but... what do I do? I have no other place to bare my soul.

But I need to. It's what I can't do without.

The thing is I'm desperately and hopelessly in love with a guy who doesn't care.

Being married for five bloody years!

My husband is the best person...

Yesterday my spouse and I had a conversation on the way to the store. He got a message on his phone and I said “Ok, give me the bad news.”

“Why must news always be bad?” he asked. Why, because there is no such thing as “good news” to me.

I hate news and I hate surprises. When I was young I thought differently, but now any news I consider as a threat to my wellbeing.

Really, what good news can there be for me?

“You have won...