Molly's Last Days Coming Soon With Major Renal Failure (pitbull, shepherd, vet) - - City-Data Forum

ilovemolly · 06-01-2009, 04:22 AM

Hi everyone, Just wanted to reach out to pet lovers, My baby girl is a Golden Retv, She is now 16 1/2 , The last year has been so hard for her the most but me as well to see her go thur so much.

We all know life is not fair for dogs at all.

But Molly started as a great puppy I got her when I was 12 and shes been great, she got shocked at 1 year old by the tv cord from chewing on it, had to be put into the vets care for 5 days, did not know if she was going to make it.

Then at 5 years old I left my back door open and me and molly were at the table i was reading a book and petting her on her head and then a pitbull ran in the back door and bit her ear off took 5 of us to get the pitbull to let go, molly did nothing at all.
So her ear got put back on after spending close to $2,000

Then last May she had been having puss come out when she peed, come to find out cause i did not have her spaded her female insides we blowing up with the puss, i heard its common after the fact, but if i did not take her to the vet that day it would of exploaded and she would of died,

So she had to get that done and all her female organs removed , that cost me $2200

Then one month later i found out sher had heart failure and her heart was 2 times the normal size and doctor said she would have to be on meds the rest of her life, and she had maybe 2 months to live and then while she would sleep her heart would stop.

But she was never suffering ,

Then 2 months later we had a checkup and found out she had Kidney Renal failure, So we were getting that under control, took her to 3 vets and all 3 said she would not live to see x-mas,

Then 3 months later found out she had started to get cancer.
Nothing we could do they said she had so many issues the cancer would not kill her but it would be kidney or heart that would kill her

So now 10 months later she fought hard

She has been fine eating good levels been under control. up until last week,

This is so hard for me to type, but last week i took her to Ohio State Medical vet ER, and they said that she had at best 5% chance to come out of all these bad toxiens that is killing her kidneys as there 98% shot.

They said they could do outterm treatment to see if it helps putting fluids in every other day,
So far she has had 3, and I think I can't keep putting her thru this.

Its not fair to her,

Just so hard, As i feel like i am loosing half of me,

When I was 15 and ran away from home for 3 months I took her with me and we slept in peoples cars and peoples car ports, and behind dumpsters , and mytself and her never cared where we were as long as we had each other.

She used to ride on my go cart with me on 10 arces of land for hours and hours she loved it..

I just don't know how I can bring my self to say , her life is over, I feel like its not my place to end her life, I know I have to because I took on her life from day one, but I feel as if i am loosing a child of mine,

I have 2 sons now and to me i am feeling like its like loosing one of them..

She has been so great for me.

She has outlived 80% of dogs in history and has outlived 92% of goldens.

She has been a fighter.
Just so hard , Cant stop crying 15 hours a day every day.

I just don't knwo how I can take her outside of my house to have her put at rest.

Took her to

latetotheparty · 06-01-2009, 06:12 AM

so sorry to hear of your molly's difficulties..........

know that she has had a good life with you and that she has been a happy girl........

(((HUGGZ)))

DawnMTL · 06-01-2009, 06:21 AM

How absolutely heartbreaking...

Like latetotheparty said, know that you gave Molly a wonderful and happy life.

You'll know it's time from the look in her eyes. You don't want her to be in pain at the end of her life, no doubt. Ending her discomfort is really just the beginning of your own pain, of course, but cherish the memories. You've had so many terrific years with her -- you must have thousands of lovely memories.

Of course, without even meeting the two of you, I'm crying now. Us dog lovers feel your sorrow... deeply.

Driller1 · 06-01-2009, 06:56 AM

I am so sorry for your pain. When I had to help my shepherd rest, the vet came to the house. Ask your vet about coming to her.

SouthernBelleInUtah · 06-01-2009, 10:14 AM

I am much older( 67) and have had to let many dogs and cats go. It's so hard. I call my vet to say why I am bringing in the pet b/c I will cry when we get there. They have all gone peacefully and I held their "hand" until the end. Having someone come to the house to put her down would be great.

I am so sorry for your upcoming loss. We have a responsibility to not let them suffer.

jm24 · 06-01-2009, 10:31 AM

All great advice. I've also had to make the decision to let several of my buddies go over the years and I have to say that I don't have any regrets (except one).

The one regret I do have is that I didn't do it soon enough last time for my buddy Jake - it was on a Sunday and I didn't want to go to the emergency vet, but rather to our regular vet on Monday morning. That was selfish because by Monday morning he was truly suffering; I would do it differently if I had the chance.

Now we are preparing ourselves for making the decision for our 14 year old, Jesse, who has arthritis and trouble getting up and down. As much as we're dreading it, we agree that we won't wait. And we now have a mobile vet who will come into the house or yard, which will make it a little less painful for all of us.

Our thoughts are with you through this difficult time.

TomSD · 06-01-2009, 10:32 AM

Such a terrible thing to have to do. I'm so sorry!

barndog · 06-01-2009, 10:56 AM

i am so sorry.

Ringo1 · 06-01-2009, 11:44 AM

Your post brought tears to my eyes and I feel so bad for you. It is a very hard decision to make; but sometimes hard times come and we have to make hard decisions. I held on to my old dog just a little too long - not for him - his life was awful at the end - but for me, because I couldn't bear to do it. With family talking to me all the time - I finally knew what I had to do. So be strong and when it's absolutely time - you will know it. My thoughts are with you. If you are a very emotional person - don't feel like you have to be right there holding her hand. She knows you love her. I felt really pressured (by no one other than myself) to be with my dog when he was put to sleep. For the few seconds it took; it was not worth it. It was very peaceful and painless - but I was an emotional mess for a year afterward, reliving that last second over and over. If I had to do it again, just me personally, I would not watch. He was my first baby and it was too hard on me. If your vet is willing to come to your house - that is wonderful and I might stay under those circumstances. Do what is right for you if it comes to that and don't burden yourself with guilt over any part of it. I felt I owed my dog my presence at the end - but the only person who was NOT calm and peaceful in that room was me!
So I feel your pain and hurt and will pray for you and Molly. Molly sounds like she has had a very good and happy life with a great owner. I wish you peace with whatever decision you must make.

DawnMTL · 06-01-2009, 11:54 AM

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Originally Posted by Ringo1

Your post brought tears to my eyes and I feel so bad for you. It is a very hard decision to make; but sometimes hard times come and we have to make hard decisions. I held on to my old dog just a little too long - not for him - his life was awful at the end - but for me, because I couldn't bear to do it. With family talking to me all the time - I finally knew what I had to do. So be strong and when it's absolutely time - you will know it. My thoughts are with you. If you are a very emotional person - don't feel like you have to be right there holding her hand. She knows you love her. I felt really pressured (by no one other than myself) to be with my dog when he was put to sleep. For the few seconds it took; it was not worth it. It was very peaceful and painless - but I was an emotional mess for a year afterward, reliving that last second over and over. If I had to do it again, just me personally, I would not watch. He was my first baby and it was too hard on me. If your vet is willing to come to your house - that is wonderful and I might stay under those circumstances. Do what is right for you if it comes to that and don't burden yourself with guilt over any part of it. I felt I owed my dog my presence at the end - but the only person who was NOT calm and peaceful in that room was me!
So I feel your pain and hurt and will pray for you and Molly. Molly sounds like she has had a very good and happy life with a great owner. I wish you peace with whatever decision you must make.

Oh, geez, talk about crying... your post also did that to me. I can't even see the computer screen through my tears.

[wipe, wipe]

OK.

Y'know, when I adopted Artie (who was MY first dog; I had dogs as a kid, but he was my first dog as an adult; he was MY responsibility), I actually stopped for a bit before adopting him and thought, "Hmmm. I'm going to outlive him and I really think it might kill me when the time comes for him to go." I actually had these thoughts for a day or so.

But then I snapped out of it and thought, "Well, this is ridiculous. I'm going to give him the best home he's ever had. Nobody else can give him what I can give him. So wouldn't I rather make him HAPPY for a [hopefully] lot of years than never know him?" The answer was YES.

He's only 5 years old. I know I have (hopefully) a lot of years left with him. When I hear about a dog's death, I think of Artie and wonder how I'll handle it. I know I won't handle it well. But these memories? The life and love that I've given him? The love that he's given me? I wouldn't trade any of it for anything.