Originally Posted by madonnafan
I think i will have to find a grief conselour. Today i went to the market to get some groceries that i needed and i had a breakdown right in the middle of the market, i had to leave everything there and come back home. I feel so insecure if i go out. This is the third time that im trying to do get out but i failed everytime. On Sunday im going to church and see if i can talk to a pastor or someone else who can guide me a little bit.
Why do you feel so insecure, madonnafan? Did your mother go with you everywhere
you went out to? It sounds like you are deliberatly making yourself breakdown doing ordinary stuff. Why? Are you punishing yourself for something that happened when Mom was alive? Do you think you were not the best daughter? Only hearing one side, I'm sure Mom loved you unconditionaly, as do most mothers. Try a fourth time to go grocery shopping.
I'm glad to hear you are going to church tomorrow and will speak to a pastor or someone. Where is your father in all of this crisis of yours? Can't you talk to him too?