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Yes...so true! Beautifully put. I need to read that everyday! Maybe it will sink in!
Long day, new meds....seem to be okay so far and I have my mind set these are going to help! My doctor sat and talked for 1/2 hour with me yesterday--unheard of--made me feel special! He is a good listener. He is setting up an appointment with a psychiatrist if for nothing more then for me to talk with. Have a blessed evening my very special group of friends---we may be "faceless" but we all have huge hearts!
Dear Cyn and everyone reading I wish you all a wonderful day.
Cyn so happy to hear you have a Doctor who listens to you and you will be receiving professional counseling. I wish I did this as advised by my Doctor but I waited 26 months until I reached out and found a Counselor that suits me. Grief groups, professional Counseling, attending church, are resources that help us help ourselves.
The end of this month will be 30 months since I lost my husband. It has felt like I was on a roller coaster, the highs and lows. And the only comfort I received was the thought someday I will join him. Boy, has it been some ride. I felt like a ill child looking out the window watching the other children play but I was not able to participate due to my illness and feeling so sad because I wasn't able to join the children in play.
Grief robbed me physically, mentally and emotionally. I just could not participate in life and I found myself walking down streets that were dead ends. I felt dead inside and I just could not feel happiness but only sadness, no matter what I did nothing seemed to help, I just needed to feel all of these emotions. I would write my husband's niece twice a month and tell her I look forward to the day I join her Uncle. I did not know how much more of life I could take. Everyday seemed cloudy and over cast.
Now I am out from under the dark clouds and most everyday the sun is shinning. I am looking forward to living life to the fullest. I am meeting like minded friends and participating in life without feeling like a zombie and I no longer feel numb inside. I am outside playing with the rest of the children (we all have the child inside of us). I am happy, not sad. I am selective of who I surround myself with. Only those people who nurture me.
I share this with you because I want for you to know that you are doing all of the right things to help yourself over-come the grief and eventually you will feel whole again but for now you take one day at a time and nurture the grief. Only doing what feels good to you. This is the time to be selfish and honor you and only surround yourself by those people who make you feel good, those people who nurture you.
Cyn, you inspire me and your blog here at CD is my favorite. The people here are amazing. I feel their love for you. You are special to us all.
I feel so very blessed. I have tried but cannot seem to explain what a special group we have here--and I'm a little over-protective of you all. I would love for everyone in our situation to know how to do what we have done here but I wouldn't know where to begin and I don't want to share what is mine--this thread (blog) even though anyone can read it that's okay so maybe it will be of some help to them too but I like it the way it is now---not everywhere--just here on CD. For some reason I feel safe here--with good reason--I am surrounded by angels!
And I agree smilin" you are amazing and are helping me and so many others get through this horror....thank you and you should be very proud to have gotten where you are now!
That's how I feel about some of the people here on C-D also, cyn, I feel "safe" sharing my inner feelings. There was not one person IRL that I could talk to when Earl died. The people here were amazing.
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