I Only Wanted You...

[tamiznluv]

They say memories are golden
well maybe that is true.
I never wanted memories,
I only wanted you.

A million times I needed you,
a million times I cried.
If love alone could have saved you
you never would have died.

In life I loved you dearly,
In death I love you still.
In my heart you hold a place
no one could ever fill.

If tears could build a stairway
and heartache make a lane,
I’d walk the path to heaven
and bring you back again.

Our family chain is broken,
and nothing seems the same.
But as we are called one by one,
the chain will link again.

[Marcy1210]

Oh, my. Now, I'm crying. Those words are so true, they just reach deep into the heart and speak to me. I'm coming up on the 6th anniversary in about 3 weeks, and sometimes the pain is still as raw as it was the day I found out he'd died...

I still will have a really tough day at least once a month. And when I'm by myself, late at night, I can cry so easily. Sigh.

That's beautiful, Tami!!

[tamiznluv]

I forgot to copy that the author is unknown. I only c&ped it.

I'm sorry, Marcy! Didn't mean to make you cry! I so understand the crying, especially at night. I never thought that would end but it has, for the most part, these past months. I used to hate to go to bed because I didn't want to cry.

Bless you, Hon. See you when I get settled down in Florida. (((hugs)))

[cynwldkat]

So true! Beautiful!

[janellen]

Thanks for that post tami. It was beautiful! Here's another one that really gets me all choked up. It's titled "The Last Love Letter:

I'm going now

You see me lying here
Eyes vacant
Hands cold
As much as I want to stay,
my body is telling me I have to go
The hardest thing I've ever had to do
is to let go of life
to let go of you

But baby, I'm going now

These machines can't push the air
deep enough into my lungs
to keep me here
I am suffocating inside my own body
It's time for me to go

Please don't cry
In ten years you gave me
more life than I had ever known before
And before you
I was already dead
You sacrificed for me
Set aside your dreams to nurture me
Your love gave me life
Now my life sets you free

I'm going now

Shedding this body
like a snake shedding skin
Skin too bloated, too blistered
My life is leaking through my pores
I am moulting
It's time for me to go

I am not leaving you
Just going ahead to prepare the way
There is still a journey left for you
And I'll be right here waiting when you're done
Waiting for you
the way you waited for me--
Take your time
And when the time is right,
you'll come back to me
But for now, I set you free

Please don't cry
I can't be the soldier now
This armor is too heavy
And this body is too weak
And I would say all this to you and more
if only I could speak

I would say, "I love you"
But I think you know that already

I would say that 21 days is too long
For you to keep vigil at my deathbed
when there is so much life
stretched out before you
beckoning you to live
like some long-forgotten lover
asking you to dance
Take Life's hand now
and let mine go
It is only flesh
It is only dust
I am not this body
Though you have loved this body
My life is now in you
Let me go

I am not leaving you now
anymore than I left you before
When I sent you to New York to find yourself
and you returned only to find me
Always to find me

I was with you then
as I will be with you now
Lending you my strength
when you think you can't last another minute
Smiling at your successes
as I watch you grow more fully
into the woman that I love
Bringing you comfort
even in my absence
Coming to you in dreams
Living in your laughter
Loving you
with every breath you take

I'll be right here
Waiting for you to come home to me
But for now, I set you free

I would have given you decades
But who knows how God measures time
I would have given you decades
All I had to give you
was a lifetime


c. H. Colvin 2011

[EverEden]

That is so beautiful and powerful! Thank you for posting.