Wondering about Ottawa, Kansas

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Originally Posted by redmemory

for the right people. I've lived here all my life. Last year I attempted suicide. No matter how hard I try, I can't get out. Its a deep black pit to me.. my self-created prison. SRS tells me to get a job. How many true opportunities exist for underprivleged Ottawans? I get the feeling nobody really cares. I've seen someone from the local mental health center for 5 years. I've been put on medication. I've worked. I've saved. I've been a victim of crime. Yet.. I am still here. Doing the same thing over and over again.

Howdy, Red. You don't say how old you are, or if you are married or responsible for taking care of other people...it makes a difference in whether you can actually get out of town, of if you're just dreaming about it. Try Lawrence or Olathe if you're looking for more action and job opportunities. Pulling a geographic (with job prospects, of course) could be just the ticket. There's a pretty interesting world out there.

Suicide is so final. If you can't get excited about living your life, maybe you could dedicate yourself to helping a truly underprivileged person by putting all your $$$ aside to help that person.

I lived in Williamsburg in the late 60's and thought that was the center of my universe. Ottawa was too big for me. Now I look back and shake my head. Good luck!