I feel like a freak

[CarolL]

I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. DH and I were once transferred across the country (I won't say where; it doesn't matter) and didn't like it. Neither did our kids. Yes, it's $$$ to move, but we quit our jobs and came back home. We think it was one of the best decisions we've ever made and have never regretted it. (Yes, we had to pay for it; but it was worth it.)

You have to go where your heart is or wants to be. Just because you made a decision and it turns out to be not what you wanted, doesn't mean you have to live with it forever.

Best wishes to you.

[sapphire-rose]

Dear Travelin:
I don't know what any one person or group can say that would be helpful here.
I moved from MA to the midwest, got married and I long to be back in MA. All my family is there. Hopefully someday sooner than later I'll be back "Home". The midwest doesn't feel like home to me. I love the ocean and there is none. There is nothing familiar out here. I "have to" learn my way around, I hate driving. Does any of this resemble any of what you feel? If I weren't married I'd be back on my home turf. All I really know is Massachusetts. I was in a community that had many portugese families, I miss that food, also seafood. I loved walking along the docks and looking at the fishing boats or watching them come into or leave port. I miss fishing even though I was never any good at it.
I was married to a guy once that was abusive. He was all right till he started to hit the bottle. He is the father to my kids. But he hasn't had a drop to drink in 20 or so years and he's a great guy again. We are actually on friendly terms. I told him straight up that I totally forgive those years and I am happy to call him my friend.
Is there any specific thing you are looking for or need to hear? I personally could not grasp your message. Dear Heart please do not find negative words to in essance refer to yourself. You are hurting yourself by even allowing to "feel like" .
You aren't a freak, you know you aren't a freak. I sense you are hurt, possibly lonely maybe feeling lost or confused. Overwhelmed maybe.
Please consider what you know would be best for you and find ways to achieve that goal. I hope that I'm not out of line here or offended you in anyway. Your post has just hit my heart and I feel saddened when people are feeling down.

[Travelin2012]

Thankx for your kind words sapphire....hope you get back to MA too.

[sapphire-rose]

HUGS to you Travelin you're in my heart and my prayers.