Huh. Something wrong with me? (cancer, phobias, feeling, months)

[southdown]

If you are interested in what people here think, why not ask some doctors or therapists what they think?

Doctors are only people too, they will tell you their opinion and you can take their advice, or not; just as you can pick the advice you prefer from the selection here.

It's YOUR life - take control of it. It's weird not to.

[mondieucharon]

Originally Posted by verynicebecky

I cut down the OP's first post in order to save time and space.

OP, yes, I think that the things that you do are weird. You asked for opinions and you have gotten plenty. You continue to state that you feel as though nothing is wrong with you. Fine. I don't think that anyone here is going to change your mind. It annoys me when ppl come here looking for advice, get pages of posts and then say that they are happy the way that they are and don't believe that anything is wrong with them. Whatever.

Hmm. I don't believe I have said that I don't think anything is wrong with me, or that I am happy the way I am. I have expressed uncertainty about whether there was in fact something wrong with me or not. I did say that I don't think I have OCD, and I am happy.
Though, I am truly sorry if my posting here annoys you. *shrug* None of these people had to respond, and neither do you. :]

Originally Posted by southdown

If you are interested in what people here think, why not ask some doctors or therapists what they think?

Doctors are only people too, they will tell you their opinion and you can take their advice, or not; just as you can pick the advice you prefer from the selection here.

It's YOUR life - take control of it. It's weird not to.

I would feel really uncomfortable talking to a doctor. Ha, if it was online I would be fine with it, not in person though.
I talked to my mom, and she said that she would not be surprised if I had OCD, an anxiety disorder in general, or a personality disorder.
Yeah.
Ha. She said I probably have BDD, too.
Eh.
I asked some of my friends, and a few of them said that I seem really unhappy a lot of the time.

:] Maybe people know me better than I know myself.

It's likely that I will start talking to the school psychologist [once school begins.. you know]. Especially because I'm taking a lot of difficult classes, and yeah. Lack of control in life I guess.

Haha. I am sorry for being so difficult, really.

[verynicebecky]

Just/posting/my/opinion/Ha*shrug*

Yes..that is weird about you. Can you not see it?

[suzie02]

Originally Posted by mondieucharon

I would feel really uncomfortable talking to a doctor. Ha, if it was online I would be fine with it, not in person though.
I talked to my mom, and she said that she would not be surprised if I had OCD, an anxiety disorder in general, or a personality disorder.

What is wrong with your mother? Why doesn't she make sure you get help?

Originally Posted by mondieucharon

It's likely that I will start talking to the school psychologist [once school begins.. you know]. Especially because I'm taking a lot of difficult classes, and yeah. Lack of control in life I guess.

Haha. I am sorry for being so difficult, really.

I really don't think a school counselor is capable of helping you with your illness. But I hope he/she can convince you to see someone who specializes in OCD.

You are not being difficult. Resistance to acknowledge your problem is part of the illness. I keep posting because I want to help you. I am glad you reached out to us. As I said before I keep hoping I can tell you the right words to convince you to get help. The longer anxiety disorders go untreated the harder it is to get back to normal. Have you ever seen this show? It portraits a person with OCD. It is supposed to be funny but to me it is sad to know there are people who live with that illness.

BTW, I don't think you have a personality disorder.

[mondieucharon]

Originally Posted by suzie02

What is wrong with your mother? Why doesn't she make sure you get help?



I really don't think a school counselor is capable of helping you with your illness. But I hope he/she can convince you to see someone who specializes in OCD.

You are not being difficult. Resistance to acknowledge your problem is part of the illness. I keep posting because I want to help you. I am glad you reached out to us. As I said before I keep hoping I can tell you the right words to convince you to get help. The longer anxiety disorders go untreated the harder it is to get back to normal. Have you ever seen this show? It portraits a person with OCD. It is supposed to be funny but to me it is sad to know there are people who live with that illness.

BTW, I don't think you have a personality disorder.

Well she also thinks that doctors will just medicate me, whether there is anything wrong with me or not. ; ] Maybe that's where I got the idea. I'm not quite sure if she knows if I am serious, either.. Ha.

I am happy that you think so. *nod* A few of my friends had half convinced me that I had Dependent Personality Disorder [because I can't do /anything/ on my own, or make /any/ decisions].

There are people who live [kind of] normally with OCD though, aren't there? :/ I know a few people who have it, and it's not like they are depressed or anything...
It's possible to live with it, right?

[JenLee]

Originally Posted by mondieucharon

There are people who live [kind of] normally with OCD though, aren't there? :/ I know a few people who have it, and it's not like they are depressed or anything...
It's possible to live with it, right?

Why don't you talk to them and see if they are in some sort of treatment? I am sure that they would have better insight to you and your problems than a bunch of people who don't know you on a public internet forum.

The one young woman I know who does have OCD is under the care of a therapist and doing very well on minimal meds. The only reason I know that she has OCD is that she told me about it when she was first entering a therapists' care several years ago. She didn't want to go on meds and was hoping that she could avoid them; however, she found that she did need some meds for some of her problems.

[suzie02]

Originally Posted by mondieucharon

Well she also thinks that doctors will just medicate me, whether there is anything wrong with me or not. ; ] Maybe that's where I got the idea. I'm not quite sure if she knows if I am serious, either.. Ha.

I am happy that you think so. *nod* A few of my friends had half convinced me that I had Dependent Personality Disorder [because I can't do /anything/ on my own, or make /any/ decisions].

There are people who live [kind of] normally with OCD though, aren't there? :/ I know a few people who have it, and it's not like they are depressed or anything...
It's possible to live with it, right?

First of all hiding your head in the sand is not the solution. Second, meds are not evil and if you need them, you need them. If you had diabetes or high blood pressure you would not complain about the meds. You would be thankful they exist. SSRIs don't change who you are they just help with the chemical imbalance you have in the brain.
I don't know what Dependent Personality Disorder is. You sound like a normal teenager with normal insecurities to me. With OCD of course.
OCD is one of those illnesses that vary in the degree. I have a little OCD because I am a germophobe but I don' count anything. I still manage to drive my dh crazy by telling him to wash his hands all the time. I also had issues when my MIL came to visit. She got offended because in her mind I was telling her she was dirty. As a teenager your illness only affects you but once you get married it will affect your entire family. Please get help.

[crazyma]

Yeah I keep coming back on here thinking that the OP is going to bravely announce she is going in to talk to a therapist.

Modieucharon...YES you can live with OCD, but you will be so much better off if you can find out and accept that you do have it. That is half the battle. Knowing will answer so many of the questions that perplex you. And help you learn how to support yourself.

Again, medications are not always the rule!! IMO, meds are a last resort for OCD after other therapies are exhausted. (except possibly in extreme cases)

I do not agree with how so many drugs are given out without truly getting to the root of the matter....for example you mentioned your brother...why your family isn't involved in therapy togehter and seperately is beyond me....IMO your brother's
'depression' is being masked by meds....meds will not magically make the cause of his depression go away........
ahhh that is another soapbox issue..........

Anyway.....you are a smart gal. Go to a library and get a hold of the current issue of the DSM IV. Look up 300.3 and 301.4. I believe those are the correct codes. Read it for yourself....I'm sure you are pretty intelligent, most OCDer's are. Maybe seeing reference to OCD in black and white will better inform you ...

[crazyma]

mondieucharon...check out this site
Help for Teens and Young Adults with OCD (http://www.ocfoundation.org/organizedchaos/index.php - broken link)


and the home one
Obsessive Compulsive Foundation |

[mondieucharon]

Originally Posted by suzie02

First of all hiding your head in the sand is not the solution. Second, meds are not evil and if you need them, you need them. If you had diabetes or high blood pressure you would not complain about the meds. You would be thankful they exist. SSRIs don't change who you are they just help with the chemical imbalance you have in the brain.
I don't know what Dependent Personality Disorder is. You sound like a normal teenager with normal insecurities to me. With OCD of course.
OCD is one of those illnesses that vary in the degree. I have a little OCD because I am a germophobe but I don' count anything. I still manage to drive my dh crazy by telling him to wash his hands all the time. I also had issues when my MIL came to visit. She got offended because in her mind I was telling her she was dirty. As a teenager your illness only affects you but once you get married it will affect your entire family. Please get help.

I suppose I would be thankful they existed... but that would be something that it was flat out positive I had. There would be scientific proof. If I need medication, I would refuse to take it until I am at least 18, for something so uncertain.
Hah. I know for sure I am more insecure than all of my friends. Because of that, I do think it goes beyond normal insecurities. I mean, I never do anything with my friends because I don't want to bother them. [It really annoys my mom a lot, that I never leave the house haha]. I'm way too terrified to even go to a store alone. That's why it worries me sooooo much more than what could be OCD. I don't live in fear because of anything OCD related. [Which is why I don't think I have OCD, still, I really do think I lack the obsession part.]
As for the marriage thing... I see no reason why someone would marry me in the first place if what I did bothered them so much. XD I can't stand to be touched, so I don't think I have to worry about other people being affected, from a relationship with me.

Originally Posted by crazyma

Yeah I keep coming back on here thinking that the OP is going to bravely announce she is going in to talk to a therapist.

Modieucharon...YES you can live with OCD, but you will be so much better off if you can find out and accept that you do have it. That is half the battle. Knowing will answer so many of the questions that perplex you. And help you learn how to support yourself.

Again, medications are not always the rule!! IMO, meds are a last resort for OCD after other therapies are exhausted. (except possibly in extreme cases)

I do not agree with how so many drugs are given out without truly getting to the root of the matter....for example you mentioned your brother...why your family isn't involved in therapy togehter and seperately is beyond me....IMO your brother's
'depression' is being masked by meds....meds will not magically make the cause of his depression go away........
ahhh that is another soapbox issue..........

Anyway.....you are a smart gal. Go to a library and get a hold of the current issue of the DSM IV. Look up 300.3 and 301.4. I believe those are the correct codes. Read it for yourself....I'm sure you are pretty intelligent, most OCDer's are. Maybe seeing reference to OCD in black and white will better inform you ...

I am anything but brave. :]

I don't think I understand how accepting having OCD would change anything. That sounds really rude XD I don't mean it that way, I don't know how to otherwise word it.

;] The internet is so much better than the library for information, in my opinion. Nobody is ever in the same row as you.
I read about OCD, OCPD, and several other disorders kind of a lot. [I spend a bit too much time online]. It was actually reading about OCD a couple years ago that convinced me I did not have OCD. I thought I had OCD because of the apparent compulsions I had.. you know? [Mostly because people thought I ate really weird. I don't eat in front of people anymore.] That was pretty much all that fit though, and as one of my more intelligent friends agreed with me, I settled with myself that I did not have OCD.
I don't know. With the DSM things, I usually can't relate very well. With articles on.. Webmd.com or something though, I often can. Which, makes me doubt myself. Hah. Ech. I mean, with you all so sure, and my friend that I tell as much to as I can dare tell a person, so convinced, I would be an idiot to not doubt myself more. Eh.