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Originally Posted by Minnesconsinite
Txtqueen..... let me tell you something.
I would weigh anything "Beachmel" has to say very carefully.
I'm a 30 year old woman who is having mother issues. She did pretty much the same exact thing to me.
I posted about my probs a couple months ago. Beachmel gives out some good advice. So don't write her off completely.
But she DOES have an ongoing theme of siding with the parent, in these mother/child scenarios, no matter what.
She always had kind of "gotcha" tone whenever she would respond to one of my posts, as if it was the ending of a Scooby Doo episode and she had just exposed to the world "who I really was".... when in fact, she "misunderstood" much of what I said! lol
I think I was called an "immature little brat" at some point by her, too.
(I'm a 30-year-old woman, I think I deserve a tad more respect than that.)
You'll go in circles with her.
And much of it will be you having to re-explain yourself over stuff she "misunderstood" (twisted around).
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So i've noticed.
I am 20, I am turning 21 on Wednesday.
I've grown up in a single parent home my whole life, exposed to ****head men who weren't worth a damn all while watching my mom have HER mom pay for things.
I've grown up with her mirco-managing my life. I HAVE a helicopter parent.
I've grown up not being made to do chores, never had a punishment followed through with, always bailed out of situations and never made to do a damn thing I didn't want to do. Getting everything I could possibly want except a car.
Despite all this she still has been oddly controlling, been super strict in the weirdest of areas and had the most f'd up reasoning behind some things.
"Women only wear make up to get sex from men"
"Tampons are only for women who are ready for sex or who have had sex."
For some reason, she is snooty, above everyone else who isn't up to her standards,even to her own family, my brother now acts like this.
I've grown up with her being knee deep in my every move, every everything. Whether it was school or my social life, she was knee deep and kicking.
She's always been mentally and verbally abusive towards me.
Always telling me my eye brows looked like almond slivers. (She meant it as a cut down.)Or after I dyed my hair and the lady messed it up and I had to have it dyed twice, my hair was really dry and she used to tell me EVERYDAY, my hair looked like "nasty straw". She cuts down my appearance everyday, always trying to tell me something looks bad on me or that something I like or whatever is stupid or nasty or wrong.
I was never taught any good money managing skills, never saved through high school or was made to save anything, never made to pay for anything.
I got sick, I got mono, had to finish high school a semester late.
Never saved any money, didn't get scholarships for grades because my grades weren't good enough.
I'm spoiled. I'm used to the finer things in life. I am used to having opposed to not. I like things and items, I don't plan on living a life of little or going without...I once was there, lived it but couldn't afford the t-shirt....I'm not going back.
I have sports injuries. I have a bone spur in my right foot from soccer where my foot got kicked on the underneath so hard that I couldn't move my toes for a few hours, I have a screwed up shoulder/arm from swimming and soccer, I have a back that's sore most of the time but I don't let any of it deter me from doing what I love and dream of doing.
NOW, I am stuck living at home till I can land some jobs to make enough money to move out.
I AM trying to change things in my life.
I AM trying to do what I need to do. (Work, go to college, experience life.)
And all I ask for is that I am treated with some respect. Don't treat me like I am some incompetent fool who doesn't know how to do a damn thing, don't treat me like a child or talk to me like one. Let me follow my own direction and support me in life. Don't violate my trust or privacy. Give me space where I want it and support where I need it.
Sure, I am immature, its a side effect of my upbringing.
Sure, my priorities are skewed. I rather have a cell phone now and wait till insurance comes with my job to have insurance.
But I am not a bad person.
I'm smart when I put my mind to it, I am a decent person. I don't go do illegal activities anymore than the next normal 20 year old. Ok sure, I've drank outside my house on occasion (in my state its legal on your parents property with their permission), I've sped before, I'm pretty sure I've been out past town curfew once or twice when I was under 18 and there was that one time I TRIED weed and didn't like it. I go to college, I work, I hang out with my friends, I have my major planned and I am not deterring from it, I have my career goals set and set high.
I don't think any of my request are unreasonable.
I don't want my mail read.
I don't want a curfew set on me. If I want to be out all night that's up to me, as long as I am not waking anyone up at 4am then it doesn't matter.
I don't want ridiculous things like a bed time and wake time set on me. I have school and I have work and I need to sleep according to MY schedule.
I don't want to be made fun of or cut down.
I don't want to feel like a 16 year old being interrogated every time I want to go out.
I don't want to be slammed on facebook by a grown woman who should know better.
I am glad she does what she does for me.
I am happy I have a place to stay and food to eat.
I just want some space and freedom, I want to start edging out on my own and sliding into my own life.
If I want to go out till 4am with work the next day at 9am and I can get in without waking anyone up and am up for work the next day, then I don't see why anyone should interfere.
I'm not a bad person, I don't deserve a lot of the stuff she says/does to me and I don't deserve a lot of what people have said here.
K I've said my peace for now.