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Originally Posted by lil_fox13
I hate being a mother. I do love my son, he is a sweet little person, but I hate being a mother. All the abuse I had to take was associated with being a mother. I see other mothers sometimes being privileged with benefits, support, caring husband, respect etc... Me, on the other hand was always treated like second class citizen because of that. On the top of being birth control sabotaged and forced into motherhood, is this normal to feel such a resentment towards everything associated with motherhood?
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I've been thinking about your post. It sounds to me as if you are living in resentment, remembering past injustices, and feeling deprived by society of something you feel you deserved.
If you do love your son, it would be better to try and transcend what happened to you in the past. It is over and done, and you have this gift of today. How you live your life is certainly influenced by past bad experiences, but it is a great waste of yourself to spend psychic energy on the bad old past.
Not every mother has the support you describe. Not every mother has an easy life or a good marriage. But you are alive, you have a son you love, and you should be living your life right now. The past is over and done. It is useless to dwell in jealousy and resentment. I want to encourage you to try to live in a positive way right now.
Good luck to you!