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Originally Posted by Mightyqueen801
That makes sense to me. I have some OCD issues--not the commonly-perceived handwashing stuff you see on TV, but mental obsessions and rituals like counting. I am a worrier to the point where if there is nothing to worry about, I worry because that's when "it" will happen.
But...after years of therapy, I catch myself. Most of the time.
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Yep, that's the thing. Once we know these things about ourselves, we HAVE to work on them...nobody else is going to do it for us.
It is hard, especially with autism. But nobody can row our boats for us, nobody...and no...society can't change just for us. If so, practically every person would have his/her very own society. Most people feel others don't understand us in some ways. With autism, potentially, there are more ways. But the bottom line is, and my every hippie fiber is rebelling at the thought but it's true, the rest of the world can't just psychically understand us. We do have to try to make ourselves understood, all of us, and not just wait for the world to "love us or leave us" every time. It's just not possible. That would be utter chaos and eventually nobody would no what the hell anybody else wanted or was thinking.
We all need to meet eachother halfway. With autism we have to work harder. So what - if I were in a wheelchair I'd have to work harder to get certain things done (most things, probably). If I were born in a different nation certain things would be much harder. If I were ill in certain ways life would be harder. Life is hard on everybody but we can't expect the globe to stop just for us. That would just be impossible.
OP, you really really really really really need some solid form of therapy with a therapist who deals with autism specifically, and if you have that but she's not performing, you need to find a different one...until you can manage to make some changes. You do not have to change EVERYTHING about yourself and you do not need to "change" being autistic (even if you could) but you do need to make some changes. This is NOT RARE and you are NOT EXCEPTIONAL in that one way...even NTs have to refine and change things all the time. We *all* have to do this..on or off the spectrum and every kind of person who exists.
I'm 99.9% sure you're stuck right now, perseverating. Even as you're answering us it's really not getting in because your "but...but...but" is jumping in over and over again. NO. STOP. Get yourself unstuck. Now. Make ONE move. One. One single change. Even a small one. Right now. Don't answer this post. Don't say "...but..." DON'T. STOP IT NOW and make ONE change, one, that was listed somewhere along this thread. Then come back and talk about it if you'd like.
How do you eat an elephant? One bite at a time.