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Originally Posted by peter2323
hello all my respect to everybody reading this i hope people who comment really are sure becouse im enough confused foreal
well...im 18 years old boy i was bullied a lot when i was young girls broke my heart a lot and all these things
make me sad from time to time these days and becouse of them i started daydreaming a lot but its been years and its like i live in another world and i give atention and feelings only there i its like i left my reality
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Generally leaving one's unhappy reality is a byproduct of bad or inadequate parenting. Who abused or neglected you? Being "bullied a lot" is also the by product of bad parenting where you were not given enough self respect and confidence to stand up to these bullies who saw you as a glaringly bright target all because you may have been bullied at home and carried a big
VICTIM sign on your back. I was bullied at school because I was bullied at home! As soon as I decided not to take it anymore, at school, I found the mental and physical means to defend myself, at least at school.
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i thought it was cool till the moment i didn't found the difrence between reality and fantasy
evan when i masturbate sometimes i find aroused by gay fantasy or porn but soon as i go living in the real world im never horny or aroused by them in real world evan in my school i got boys which touch their self its like joke but when they come at me i dont feel aroused i dont even let them touch me cuz idk want it .. its like another me i hate this if its girl i can touch her too but boy i feel not only not aroused but bad and i hate it like get the **** out of here i aint gay
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IMO and experience, unhealthy parents/parenting will set a child up to have and do all that you are writing about here so, I'd carefully examine the kind of parenting you are getting and conditions in your home with everyone there.
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its like fantasy make me belive in something that its not real but its been soo long i when i watch horror movies and i start believe that i am the same and fantasy again confuse me like i was reading that fantasy u dont got the feel of judgment in it its like the fantasy is empty and that they sometimes give u wrong believes like i had even bout killing my family or burn my cat but even when i hurt without wanting my cat when i walk and i hit her i feel bad and sorry like not only i dont feel nice or desire to do it again but i feel bad but in my fantasy like i imagine burning her and watch her and its all good even i might like the feeling or get me confused when its in reeality i feel bad and its like opossite same with my family
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Someone in your family, most like the parents, has SERIOUSLY hurt you and now you want to get back at them or your innocent cat to discharge the energy/feelings of anger and pain that they have given you.
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i was reading somewhere that fantasy might confuse your feelings with the feelings from reality if u live only in your fantasy i mean its strange cuz since i started living in my head and fantasy im everything bad but only in my head like in reality i just think bout that but never act on it never...
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Yet there will come a time when the unhappy energy will FORCE you to act on it and have you doing horrible things as if that was what you want or NEED to do.
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fantasy really get me confused i said to my self if i am some type of killer like in my fantasy il make a susaide idk want life like that idk im really confused i hope if someone knows better then me to help cuz
even if try fantasy i never do it like there is this wall that if in fantasy i did it and i liked it or got confused do i like it in reality i even hate it when i try it and say to my self ooh no id like this and i stop it
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All I can come up with is for you to go to a counselor, therapist or some free support group on line. Google: support groups and find one for your self. Try Codependency or Adult Children of dysfunctional families or whatever you can find there.
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im afraid not to be sometype of psicho killer or something like that and my fantasy to turn out real idk i hope someone understands me..
... its like i cant find difrence between real desire and fantasy desire idk cuz i live in my fantasy for soo long
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Find a counselor to talk to!
good luck
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