I can't get forget this bad relationship (introvert, therapy, men)
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I'm posting because I feel in a very dark place that I cannot leave and I am in therapy but I still feel hopeless so i'm hoping for some people who can understand the situation and give advice and no mean comments or judgement please. You can keep that to yourselves.
My issue now is that as much as I hate admitting this I love this man. I have my own issues but I am a good person and everyone tells me that I was lucky to get away and that he would've driven me insane and ruined me but I feel more ruined and insane than ever WITHOUT him. I can't even FEEL anything. I'm just numb and angry and sad and I have started drinking more too. Whenever I decide to move on FOR REAL something happens, a sign that reminds me of him (like someone saying his name or I keep bumping into people who look like him) or someone who knew him comes into my life out of nowhere even. It's exhausting, it's like life won't let me forget him. It's been so long and he crosses my mind everyday... some days I just start crying because a memory randomly pops up in my head and replays over and over.
I don't know why this is happening to me? Is this normal? Can someone please explain how to stop this?
Last edited by darknesssky; 09-21-2017 at 06:26 PM..
The years tell me you are about 23. Shake yourself and be thankful to be out of the mess you talked about. Do something constructive and STOP the madness you put yourself thru.
Most of us who have been in your shoes can relate, and the only thing I can tell you is that TIME DOES HEAL. My divorce almost 20 years ago was really messy, and I did a lot of things that were totally out of character for me. Now, she is just someone I once knew, nothing more, nothing less.
After my divorce I met a nice lady I wanted to date and she said "Come back and ask me again in a year, because it will take that long for you to get your head straight." She was right, a year later I felt much better and could smile again.
Most of us who have been in your shoes can relate, and the only thing I can tell you is that TIME DOES HEAL. My divorce almost 20 years ago was really messy, and I did a lot of things that were totally out of character for me. Now, she is just someone I once knew, nothing more, nothing less.
After my divorce I met a nice lady I wanted to date and she said "Come back and ask me again in a year, because it will take that long for you to get your head straight." She was right, a year later I felt much better and could smile again.
Time will help, believe me.
I'm sad to hear many people can relate but it also feels good not to be alone, thanks.
Wow what a sweet lady! Glad to hear things got better.
I have done that many times already. And I have dated other men so I know what I want/need too.
It's a lot harder than that. Brain and heart can't agree.
I think maybe part of the problem is that you think no one will ever look at you again like he did. No one will ever make you feel like he did, when things were good. But someone WILL come along, and they WILL look at you like that, and he will make you feel happy, content, etc.
Also, sometimes, we get addicted to the deep deep feelings and hurt. We ruminate on it, and we tell ourselves "I will never be happy again".
But here's God's truth, cause I've walked in your shoes...you CAN if you want to, and when you're ready to. At some point, you will be tired of being sad, and you will well and truly put him in the rear view mirror.
It's very normal to be feeling what you're feeling right now, so go ahead and own it and call it what it is, you are mourning the loss of a relationship.
If you have a best friend, it really IS helpful to have a gab fest with a gallon of icecream or a pitcher of margaritas, and hash it all out verbally. Sometimes getting all those emotions out verbally is a huge help.
It's not as if you just broke up, right OP? How long ago was this?
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Originally Posted by darknesssky
It's a lot harder than that. Brain and heart can't agree.
It's really not your heart doing this. It's your brain, and you CAN stop it, if you really wanted to. I've been there.
You're getting something out of ruminating about it, so you keep doing it. When you figure out what that is, you'll quit.
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