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Today I am a blubbering mess. My Jess who has spent a while now struggling with Lupus is no longer in any pain. I stayed with her and held her as she went to sleep, I owed it to her, and the thought of leaving her alone for that step was too much to imagine. Her story is here....
This morning when I went downstairs there was a mess everywhere with blood in her bodily fluids (she seemed okay yesterday). I had been due to take her to the vets tomorrow. I rang and took her straight down. She had gastro that was eating away at her insides. The vet said the chances of her getting septicemia were very high, especially with her immune system being destroyed. She still wagged her tail which made me feel awful but I knew that even if she could survive this that she wouldn't have the quality of life that she deserved. It was only a matter of time. I made the toughest decision that I have ever made. I released her. Maybe she knew. I am due to go overseas on Sunday and had been worried about how she would be (she was going to stay with family). In a way I am relieved that I was able to be here for her, if she had taken a turn after I left then she might not have survived the five weeks until I came home and that worried me greatly. My sister said maybe Jess knew I was going away and wanted to go before I left, she would have stressed without me. Jess was with me through some really tough times. Right now I have her brother next to me, poor thing, we will give each other lots of hugs.
Her passing was as peaceful as I could have hoped for, I kept telling her that I loved her and that I was sorry. I was bawling. She went quickly. I was able to stay with her for a while after she left. Logically I know I have done the right thing, but there are always questions of was it the the right time? Could she have gotten better just maybe? I know that is just me feeling awful right now. I hope she is in a better place with lots of food, a beach, and plenty of cuddles.
Rest in peace Jess 16/2/04-26/1/12. No more pain. Sleep well. I will always love you baby girl.
I am so very sorry. But please don't try to second guess your decision - you did everything you could for her and I hope you can find some peace in knowing that and knowing that she is no longer in pain.
My sister said maybe Jess knew I was going away and wanted to go before I left, she would have stressed without me.
I think animals have a 6th sense.
I lost my girl just before an appointment with a specialist to figure out what was wrong. I made the appointment wondering where I was going to get the money. Somehow, I think she knew that. She was always such a mean little thing, but between the 2 injections, she gave us the sweetest look ever. Almost like a "thank you and don't worry, everything will be all right." Maybe it was her drugs talking, but it made me feel so much better.
Letting go is always hard, but it is the right thing to do to release them from pain. My heart is with you.
You will be reunited with her when it's your time to join her.
Until that time please take solace in the fact that she now walks with you wherever you go.
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