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This is what happened to mine. We knew each other since we were 10, he first asked me to be his "girlfriend" when we were 13, and then graduation came along and killed it because he was set on his dream college which was hundreds of miles away.
Even though I feel like I have moved on, I still dream about him frequently so I know he floats around in my subconscious still. Ive seen his parents a couple of times and they tell me he's never married and living a few hours away. I kind of wonder if I ruined him like he ruined me.
Life goes on.
I kind of wonder if I ruined him like he ruined me.
Good possibility. I know I feel that way about my person. I have not met (In person) anyone who was that compatible on a personal level. Practically speaking, I could never live the Love of my life as she was a recuer with 2 out of control sons, 10 dogs and an ex husband who was a case himself. She never met someone that needed help that she could turn away. I admired that quality in her, but she did it so much she and I suffered because of it.
It took over a year and a half for me to finally accept all of them, and then escape from the 'relationship' with her. The sex was phenomenal and still to this day probably the best ever - but I can't even give her full credit for that aspect of the relationship because it was her fundamental and very disordered psychology and sense of life that enabled the sex to be so out of control.
The 18 months with her was a journey straight into hell and back.
I had to let her go for the following reasons.
She was a user
Pathological liar
Narcissistic traits and behavior
Sociopathic characteristics: along with a lack of empathy and compassion
Cheating - Infidelity and keeping other guys on hold during the relationship
Extremely arrogant (not necessarily confident) - all based on her façade of a life
Alcohol abuse
She had an inherent ability to reinvent history and recreate reality to suit her current needs: basically being with her required that I be a co-conspirator in her charade. She also lacked a working relationship with reality on many levels.
Significant personality issues - more than likely based on my research, she meets all of the criteria for
Dissociative Identity Disorder, which is something that only years of therapy if she was even willing would even remotely be able to address.
Lack of emotional maturity and she was very manipulative and deceptive about everything in her life. I think she even lacks the ability to discern truth from fiction at this point and consciously lies to herself at times.
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Anyway - still the most porn induced sex the Sky-O has ever engaged in and that is what kept things going for so long.
She will never change, aside from gradually evolving into a worse version of what she was when we were together.
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It took over a year and a half for me to finally accept all of them, and then escape from the 'relationship' with her. The sex was phenomenal and still to this day probably the best ever - but I can't even give her full credit for that aspect of the relationship because it was her fundamental and very disordered psychology and sense of life that enabled the sex to be so out of control.
The 18 months with her was a journey straight into hell and back.
I had to let her go for the following reasons.
She was a user
Pathological liar
Narcissistic traits and behavior
Sociopathic characteristics: along with a lack of empathy and compassion
Cheating - Infidelity and keeping other guys on hold during the relationship
Extremely arrogant (not necessarily confident) - all based on her façade of a life
Alcohol abuse
She had an inherent ability to reinvent history and recreate reality to suit her current needs: basically being with her required that I be a co-conspirator in her charade. She also lacked a working relationship with reality on many levels.
Significant personality issues - more than likely based on my research, she meets all of the criteria for
Dissociative Identity Disorder, which is something that only years of therapy if she was even willing would even remotely be able to address.
Lack of emotional maturity and she was very manipulative and deceptive about everything in her life. I think she even lacks the ability to discern truth from fiction at this point and consciously lies to herself at times.
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Anyway - still the most porn induced sex the Sky-O has ever engaged in and that is what kept things going for so long.
She will never change, aside from gradually evolving into a worse version of what she was when we were together.
For sure, sex cannot carry a relationship. But, mediocre sex would kill it every time too. Finding someone who is a match in all my important areas is close to impossible. It would have been a huge compromise if I would have stayed with the woman I was talking about in the OP.
For sure, sex cannot carry a relationship. But, mediocre sex would kill it every time too. Finding someone who is a match in all my important areas is close to impossible. It would have been a huge compromise if I would have stayed with the woman I was talking about in the OP.
I thought I found someone but female spirits wanted her to be with a gay man who will be burned at the stake along side his own mother in the end. Women really do not know how powerful and unforgiving witches are in the bitter end.
The love of my life was, as a whole, not a very good person. But I was sinking like a stone when I met him, and he provided all the things I needed at that precise time in my life. I truly believe he pulled me out of what could have been a very bad downward spiral. I broke up with him because of the stress I felt from his irresponsible life choices, but he never treated me with anything but kindness and gentleness. We danced around getting back together, but ultimately, I could never be with him because he did not treat other people with that same kindness and gentleness, not even his own kids. I could never forgive him for not being the parent his two children (by other women) needed him to be. At the same time, I am forever grateful for the fact that he gave me the safe place I needed to start becoming the happy and confident person I am today. I honestly can't say I wasn't headed towards suicide - that course of action was definitely on the table when I met him, even if it was still an unlikely possibility.
I guess that sounds pretty conflicted, but I'm at peace with it.
Once upon a time there was a girl I adored. We were in the same sixth-grade class but we never talked the entire year. We were in opposite corners of the classroom and she was always surrounded by her friends who came to her at every opportunity. I thought she ran with a fast crowd and we couldn't have anything in common. (I was wrong.)
After that year I moved away but still had relatives and friends there, and later got to know her; that's when I came to adore her. There was a specific day when I decided that I had no chance, and it was best to not even think of trying. This turned out to be a dark day for it played out for me in lost career opportunities and generally adverse outcomes.
Today, I am lame, unattractive, broke, and have no semblance of what can legitimately be regarded as a career, so nobody loves me.
I have to go out of town for work and when I get back I get a bachelor party and then a week later I get married. It sucks that I have to worry about work, but my fiance' is so great that it doesn't matter. That is the love of my life....that and the Sooners.
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