Forget your looks for a second (you weren't that good looking anyay

just a joke! calm down) and your financial situation and all that, and just think about how you are inside. If you could change one thing about your personality, what would it be?
Me...*sigh*

I admit, I have some issues with females. The other day, I was on a train, and this young women, maybe 17-20, was with her boyfriend in the seat accross from mine. Long story short she got dumped and he walked out before the NYC stop that they were going to, and she cried and cried and cried...and I, I am sorry to admit, had a, ohh...
anatomical male responds to her crying and anguish.
Yahh, I have a sadistic streak when it comes to women, I like seeing them hurt, seeing them in pain, and enjoy it when one is suffering, especially emotionally.
Wrong? Yahh...do I feel guilty about it? Absolutely. Do I wish I could change? Sure. If only I had the money for a shrink...
Anyway, I do also enjoy when a woman is happy for something I did, like when I found a kitten for this girl I was crushing on and she named it my middle name. But still...seeing a girl cry gets me hot, and I wish I could change that.
Anyway, if you could change any negative personality trait you have, what would it be?