I think my ex-cheated for she thought i was controlling ..i had attitude problem and im short tempered .. however she was more controlling than i ever would be to anyone .. secondly she had an attitude problem for she didnt call me once in three months while im abroad .. although when i asked her why ? she said cuz u call everyday .. she had internet at home which got disconnected thats what she said to me ..had no webcam .. as soon as i came to this country i got things ready to stay in touch even bought a webcam and a new cell phone for her cuz she said her cell phones got wrecked..i told her to atleast come online once at the cyber cafe ..she said she cant cause its far from where she stayed :S .. she felt long distane relationships never work ..she once asked me if i would marry 2 women ..i jokingly said yes only if u think u arent good enough to keep me away from others .. thirdly she didnt trust me for my honesty was in par to her thoughts .. she always quipped our thoughts dont match and that im quite different from the other guys ..although i did everything i possibly could to make her feel secured and happy .. gifts and all
.. fourthly whenever i talked about our future plans she would say im not quite ready for it and i feel uneasy about getting married :S .. no kids untill shes ready for it ..no sex even :S .. whenever i called she never said I Love U ..or Miss u ..it was me who made such comments .. the last time i had a convo ..she said im cold and not very romantic ..i said if i werent so why would i sing songs for u ..order flowers,chocolates and gifts for u from miles away
.. however she might have forgotten me by now ..but why am i not being able to forgive and forget her .. i cry like a sissy every night cuz im alone at home and i feel extremely lonely ..especially in this country where u're not even allowed to mingle with women .. i cant just leave my job ! .. shes a cheat .. a ***** and a total loser for she lost a lovely person that i am .. but whom do i trust from now on .. she was hot though
..will i get someone who can erase those memories i had with her ..i believe there is ..but will i ever get justice for what she've done to me .. i've been diagnosed for mild depression ..but now im okay ..still im not being able to forget her ..thats really annoying for me and for everyone around me .. im confident but confused .. geez sorry for deflecting from the subject but i definitely need to know if she would ever suffer for wht she did to me ? ..plz help !!