I am in my middle 40's and I am scared to death to ask a man out. I look pretty at least that is what i am told. But my I only go to places like Barnes and Nobles, or Meiji's, and i go to my son's basketball game and everyone in this small town knows everyone. Its awful. I used to be an RN, there you came across people but then for the most part i did have a boyfriend. Now that i am at home I will discuss more of my situation if it comes up then . But, I am at home collection disability I get along fine you can not see my disability right now I have MS. My last son is in his 14 I plan to go to nice sunny state come winter is my thought is stuff don't change or something just for winter and be like a lone wolf. my name is Phoenix because of my believe system. which that will be something i will go into... I am blond with brown eyes and decent figure like i had when i was 28 i don't know what the deal is. Forbes stated Michigan's is a miserable state it always has been for me. I back and look of the change no more a nurse. disabled (However i get around OK etc.) and believe system changed big time. Yes i am a handful of fun lol