OWL...here is a thread for you... (San Antonio, Anton: insurance, new house)

[mrstxcop]

i thought i would start you your own thread seeing as how you and your husband are both going thru medical issues that you are updating about...

i just don't want your information to get lost in my information...

i hope all goes well for both you and your husband --- hang in there --- i know how hard it is...HUGS!!!

~~~ Ana

[da jammer]

Originally Posted by Owl

Owl here, again...

Today's not been great. MORE PRAYERS PLEASE!!!

I went to the hospital early to see my husband. He looks so frail and weak. He doesn't understand how ill he has been, how fragile his health is, even now.
A physical therapist came by and tried to get him up on his feet, walking a bit--with a walker to steady him. But his blood pressure was 70 over 40...too low to risk anything physical that would tax him.

In the meantime, I heard that I may be able to take him home tomorrow. Not sure about that. But he is going to need help--mine--and so I had to cancel my appointment with the surgeon today, as I can't drive 22 miles each way, have my husband at home, and if I'm put into a hospital or even go for whatever else I need...drive that far on my own.

I'm trying to find some place closer to my home to go to. Everything takes time, though, and there is always some catch to getting what I need.

It's pretty overwhelming to me.

But I thank everyone out there, who has been following along with my situation, and MrsTXCop's. It is strange how comforting it is to read your encouraging posts, considering none of us know each other, aside from this board.

Thanks again.

Owl

The latest from Owl.....

[Owl]

This is not a happy post.

My husband looked very frail, worse than yesterday, not better. And I had such high hopes that he might be able to make a slow recovery at home.

I was led to understand that he would be released tomorrow morning. But now I'm not sure. I know the hospital wants him out of there. I understand. It's a business, and his insurance wouldn't activate until June 1.

Please remember, we tried to get him private insurance before, but he was turned down due to something in a doctor's report from when he still had a job and insurance.

His mind was very confused. He can't stand, nor walk on his own.

I had to cancel my appointment with the surgeon today, because if I need to go into the hospital, I can't leave my husband alone, stranded.

And, on top of everything, I've found that everyone in town (doctors, radiologists) hate my insurance carrier. I actually had to FIGHT with them this afternoon, to get ANYONE at the insurance company to assist me. I can still cancel, if I do it before the end of the month, and find another company.

This is like a soap opera, huh?

The Perils of Owl.

And please excuse my spelling. I'm losing that, too, apparently.

Maybe this is too much. Maybe I should just keep my situation to myself. I'm all foggy and feeling like the world I'm in is separate from the world others habitate.

It is so strange, too, how I see people rushing about, doing ordinary, carefree things--things I used to do, as well. And now I look at them, not with envy, but with the thought that I want them to understand that what will make them truly happy is not the new car or the new house, but to pay attention to the feelings of those they love. To really see how precious and fleeting life is. It's really like we are all living in burning houses, and we're watching television and eating popcorn, trying to ignore the truth of our tenuous grip on this life.

Maybe I'm getting to philosophical and morbid.

Sorry.

But, on the other hand, perhaps seeing what I'm going through may help someone else, someone who needs to pay attention to love and kindness and really seeing other people as the same as themselves.

Bye for now.

Owl

[ryneone]

I can't even imagine. Im so sorry for you and your family my prayers are with you.

If you guys need anthing PM no that im sure what a 19 year old college kid can do but I can cook a mean lasagna.

[NurseDana]

Praying for you and dh. So sorry to hear this news.

[The Man in SATX]

Sorry to hear what you are going through.. here is my prayer so that your husband and yourself get through the rough times.. in the meantime.. if I can be of assistance please feel free to DM me.

[hadleyzoo]

Owl,

I am so sorry to hear about everything you are going through. Please continue to post even if you feel like you are rambling. For what it's worth, everything you wrote made perfect sense to me.

[GoTexan]

You and your husband are in my prayers.

Please don't think that you are alone. As I read your post it's like deja vu.
I want to tell you that I have faced similar situations with my family and in my line of work. You are NOT crazy. Just stay strong and try to take each step a day at a time.

I am in the medical/pharma industry and see this happen day after day. God bless you and let us know if we can pass along any advice or help.

[Owl]

Thank you all for your responses. I would send a p.m. to each one of you, but I'm sure you can imagine that I'm pretty wiped out now.

I feel like I'm in a special ops Marine Boot camp, where only the tough survive the drills. I know enough about life to know that the greatest growth comes from the greatest challenges we face.

By the way Ryneone...your post made me laugh. Now that was something!

All of you are great. And if someone who is thinking about "What's it like to live in San Antonio," well, I think you have a pretty clear picture. These are the best people you will ever find anywhere. Imagine, San Antonio is the 7th biggest city (I think I've got that right) and yet it does have that "small town heart."

When things improve, I'm going to have a meeting place for all of us to get together, for whoever wants to show up.

Love to you all, and thanks.

Owl

[Owl]

Just a little update from me.

My husband is home! He's very, very thin, needs a walker to build up his strength, is a bit slow...but he's home!

Now for my stuff.

I don't have time right now to thank everyone for their prayers and kindness, but you are all in my heart.

But, um, don't stop the prayers, as we're not out of the woods yet.

Gratefully,

The Owl