Hi, well I've stopped drinking...just made the choice to stop, and at the most stressful time...while unemployed and stressed...

But for some reason, as I was driving around in vehicle, I would look out the window at older males, stumbling around, downtown and elsewhere....and I said to myself 'no, I'm not going to end up like that, unemployed and liquered up'...

I'm a fighter...and whatever I must face, I can face it better with a sound, solid, functioning mind....

Hi, I kinda see this blog spot as a bedroom of sorts, a bedroom in a giant mansion, or castle, with lots of rooms and cammotion...

It's a place where I can come and just rest...write, without having to 'proove' a point...take off thy shoes and just walk barefoot, in comfort...a bedroom...

Everyone is so so different...everyone interpits the world around them in such different ways...some see grey as red and others see green as violet...there really is no moral calibration...and...

Is my 'weirdness' leading me back to God?'
A question I've been asking myself lately as I ponder many things...

Like my identity...and what do I want it to be?
In the past I've often expressed that I wish I could just be a genderless entity...one whom could just live, and love...without the role that having a gender places you under.
My life is not really geared for that anymore, nor are my thoughts...
I don't wake up in the morning thinking 'I want to find...

Hi, well the pace has slowed down here a lot for me...
I've sorta been 'ostricized'...but I do it to myself...I suppose I could just act like the typical woman chasing male...but that would bore me...
That role bores me...I like people who have interesting minds, and thoughts...that go beyond the basic 'man chases woman' theme...

There's so much more to life, and or the mind, than just the basic 'man chase woman' scenerio...
I'm a thinking person...now if I could...

All my favorite threads get shut down...the ones that are hot and fast...rapid fire...they all get shut down...

What happens is some people who post in them start getting a bit 'graphic' in their illustrations...and then others feed off that until it becomes a frenzy and all reasoning goes out the door...

But I can handle it...I can steer them back to 'sanity' if only allowed to do so...

Now I'm bored...the other topic threads are slow...I mean who wants...