Trust

Trust is something that is extremely difficult to come by anymore. Over the past 50 yrs I've tried to be a kind and trusting soul. It has never pd off. Every time I trust someone I get hurt. And every time I get hurt I'm reminded why I shouldn't trust people at all anymore. I don't think God designed us to be alone for all eternity. But that's how it's beginning to look here for me.

After some recent events I have decided I'm done trusting people. After all these years I've decided enough is enough. I can't deal with it anymore. Even trying to manage some lighthearted conversation online isn't safe anymore. All people seem interested in is fighting or playing head games with people. I have better things to do than participate in that kind of crap.

I would say that 98% of the people in my life have all turned their backs on me or simply abandoned me. They get me to like them and then they ditch me for better friends or other mates or whatever their excuses are.

People invite themselves into my life and I stupidly allow it and then I become some non-existent force that sits in a corner and nobody sees. I'd be better off immersing myself in video games.

It's been a year since I've heard from any of my so-called friends. Somehow I don't think they are anymore.