Well things are still dire,finding it very hard to go on.I still thought though last night what a beautiful time this was,somehow facing death has brought everything that matters into focus,I feel more authentic and true than I've ever felt,like all the superfluous and false lives have passed away.I thought too the other day how I wanted to be like the
girl with the harp dressed in flowing clothes,painting and poetry,the mystic arts just completely devoted to an authentic life away from our false...