My head was buzzing like a maniac, constantly going over the same problem, thinking, analyzing, debating, discussing. I WAS TALKING TO MYSELF like a crazy person. I can't sleep, can't focus on work, & a restlessness took over me. For days I have not done anything productive but to think about my issue.

I knew how to handle this madness. I made a post on message board to talk it out. I jotted down some notes in my journal about this feeling (1-2 paragraph), I went...

I found out I am lazy & that is my problem. I don't like struggle, I am not making progress in life not because I fear the challenge or fear what people will think or fear the uncertainty, actually I thrive in those. I love experimenting but what I don't like to do is STRUGGLE. I don't want to complicate life, I don't want to work hard, I don't want to make it difficult. But as Brendon Burchard said in his YouTube/podcast "The Pains of Progress"
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It absolutely sickens me how many Christians are rushing to defend Donald Trump. What disgusts me more than anything, they hold LGBT people as peverts and abominations, and disgusting, and immoral...then rush to defend an actual pervert, who is disgusting and immoral. Who brags about grabbing women's vaginas. Who has broken his marriage vows God knows how many times. Who has disgraced the Mothers of his children by cheating on them.

One's character is one's character. It should not...

(Blogging as a commentary):

"subsistence outlaws?" Is that neo-PC code for highwaymen, brigands, and pirates? ...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iDfRlgtaCEM

Looking at his bio and artistry, it's clear Dwayne 'Lil Wayne' Carter was raised, nurtured and socialized in American Child Abuse, Emotional Neglect and Maltreatment that evolved from America's long-standing, ignorant Culture of Racism.

I am referring to a Culture of Child Abuse, Emotional Neglect/Abandonment and Maltreatment responsible for popular American urban storytellers the late Tupac Shakur and White House guest Kendrick...