Learning How to Live
Posted 05-16-2012 at 11:03 PM by seekerkat
You are probably aware of the saying; Live, Laugh and Love? Well, I am on a spiritual journey and I am learning to live- authentic - I am learning to laugh - more often - and I am learning to love - yep love! 
I got the live part because I am Alive ! LOL But I am learning what it means to really live. It's more than breathing, seeing and experiencing emotions. Living has become the most interesting adventure now that I have started walking on a spiritual path. Well, more like a quest I guess.
Let me explain. Living my 48 years of life so far has been all about what other people have wanted. Like me to be Catholic, me to be "Christian" me to be "straight" you know all those kinds of things.
Well, the next 48 years is going to be totally the opposite of all that! Not that I don't believe in God! I do! But I am not Catholic and I will not follow Relgious teachings ever again! I won't be connected to a "Church" and I can't become "straight" I was always a little crooked.
I am on a quest to rid myself of every ego-based identification i have. I want to follow the Holy Spirit and not man or man's interpretation of God. I am seeking to find God within me which in essence is finding love within me.
I have become so selfish, resentful, bitter and angry that I have taken a huge disliking towards myself. I was ready to just end it all when one day I heard about the ego. This is the false person I thought I truly was. It was/is the person I have become based on my fear of others and my fear of God.
I have always been a person who believed in doing all the "right" things or "else" Or else I would be rejected, not loved, made fun of, thrown into hell... Well, I am breaking these chains of lies once and for all. I am identifying these false illusions of myself and turnning over a new me.
I am going to be who God made me to be not the person my parents, family, friends, strangers, teachers or preachers tried to make me be. I am no longer a victim of Relgion, judgment or fear.
I am loving, gentle, peaceful, and above all, forgiving towards those who reject, hate, or judge me because of their ego. I am not going to return hate for hate, fear for guilt, nor am I going to follow after people in order to feel accepted by God.
I am loved by God. I have never nor will I ever be separated from God for any reason. I am Gods creation and God is for me. God allowed me to be in this reality to learn to be near 'him' and I will take my place with God and be One.
God does not reject me therefore I can never be rejected. What man can do to me is nothing in comparison to Gods love. God is greater than man who is in the world.
I will speak of Gods love. For that is the only reality that truly exists.
kat
I got the live part because I am Alive ! LOL But I am learning what it means to really live. It's more than breathing, seeing and experiencing emotions. Living has become the most interesting adventure now that I have started walking on a spiritual path. Well, more like a quest I guess.
Let me explain. Living my 48 years of life so far has been all about what other people have wanted. Like me to be Catholic, me to be "Christian" me to be "straight" you know all those kinds of things.
Well, the next 48 years is going to be totally the opposite of all that! Not that I don't believe in God! I do! But I am not Catholic and I will not follow Relgious teachings ever again! I won't be connected to a "Church" and I can't become "straight" I was always a little crooked.
I am on a quest to rid myself of every ego-based identification i have. I want to follow the Holy Spirit and not man or man's interpretation of God. I am seeking to find God within me which in essence is finding love within me.
I have become so selfish, resentful, bitter and angry that I have taken a huge disliking towards myself. I was ready to just end it all when one day I heard about the ego. This is the false person I thought I truly was. It was/is the person I have become based on my fear of others and my fear of God.
I have always been a person who believed in doing all the "right" things or "else" Or else I would be rejected, not loved, made fun of, thrown into hell... Well, I am breaking these chains of lies once and for all. I am identifying these false illusions of myself and turnning over a new me.
I am going to be who God made me to be not the person my parents, family, friends, strangers, teachers or preachers tried to make me be. I am no longer a victim of Relgion, judgment or fear.
I am loving, gentle, peaceful, and above all, forgiving towards those who reject, hate, or judge me because of their ego. I am not going to return hate for hate, fear for guilt, nor am I going to follow after people in order to feel accepted by God.
I am loved by God. I have never nor will I ever be separated from God for any reason. I am Gods creation and God is for me. God allowed me to be in this reality to learn to be near 'him' and I will take my place with God and be One.
God does not reject me therefore I can never be rejected. What man can do to me is nothing in comparison to Gods love. God is greater than man who is in the world.
I will speak of Gods love. For that is the only reality that truly exists.
kat
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