https://chnetwork.org/story/the-mystery-of-the-cross/
"I am slowly coming, too, to an understanding that, as my Italian priest tried to tell me, Christ’s death was the greatest act of love in the history of creation. But also, that I was right not to run from my own suffering. Because they are connected — utterly, mysteriously connected. I could read all the books in that library and think I’d understood it, but it’s only when life pins you to your own cross, when you cannot wriggle free, that you catch a whiff of the mystery."
A wonderful story. Read it all the way through.