Thanks for joining our conversation you all! Great to see! Please keep it up and share whatever you feel would be good to share. Some great thoughts have been shared!
Now that I have a few minutes I would like to continue my response to the last part of porton's previous post.
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I was a believer in god when i was little, and i prayed every single night for everything, i would also recite the lords pray everynight and so on and so forth. that all eventually stopped as a grew up and realised my prays where never being answered and no one would judge my good and bad actions, other than my concious. which i like to keep clear.
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A couple of thoughts on what you said above porton....
I too was a believer in God, as you were, before I became a Christian. I other words...I believed that God existed, I prayed to Him now and then, and every once in a while I actually relied on Him for something (I think). But my belief was not saving faith. There is a big difference.
When I just believed in God I did not rely on the sacrifice of Jesus Christ to save me. I trusted in myself to be good enough to make it to heaven on my own. And it wasn't just the heaven part either. I was master of my own life. I believed in God but ran my own life. Just the way I pleased to run it. I thought I knew better than even God when it came down to it, how to run my life.
Also...while I believed God existed I could not claim to have much of any personal relationship with Him.
A personal relationship with God is only possible if the issue of our having offended God by our sins is taken care of.
I was always aware of having sinned against God in something but I never had an assurance of forgiveness. Oh...I prayed for God to forgive me but my prayer was one of hoping that God would. Not really being sure that He would. And as a result I could no more have a peaceful relationship with God than I could have with a wife if I had offended her in some way but could never be sure that she had truly forgiven me.
I could not get rid of guilt.
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is it okay if i ask you, why are you a christian? if you dont mind sharing it.
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Thanks for asking porton. Please feel free to ask me anything you want. I mean anything. About my personal life, my convictions, anything at all. I may not answer everything publicly on the forum but I don't mind you asking at all.
Why am I a Christian, heh? Well...let's see.
In short it's because I truly believe that Jesus Christ died for my sins. And that God wants me to have a real relationship with Him. That excites me porton. I mean that God, who created all things, is there walking with me and being with me wherever I go and whatever I do. He encourages me when I need encouragement. He corrects me when I need to be corrected. He understands me fully. More completely than I even understand myself. He approves of the person He has made me to be and loves me completely.
I will never, ever be completely alone in this life porton. I have come close to death several times (or at least I thought I was close to death) and you know something? The Lord was with me during those times. If I would have died I would have died alone in the sense of not having anyone who cared about me around me. But I would not have died alone in the sense that Jesus Christ was with me and enveloped me in His love. I knew that I was forgiven. I knew where I would wake up.
I have experienced a love in my relationship with God porton that is very hard to describe. There are times when incredible peace floods my heart. So much so that it's like I am walking around in a daze.
I have grown content with my life porton. I no longer strive to be somewhere else or to be somebody different than who I am in Christ.
Don't get me wrong porton. I still struggle at times. Just recently the Lord brought me to a place of death where I needed to let go of my absolute desire to leave the cold of Canada and head to Florida. I needed to surrender that to Him too.
I still twist and turn and argue with God and sometimes even get mad at Him. Sometimes I fall into deep despair. Sometimes I feel like my life is a great big waste and no good for anything. But...the Lord is always there for me. He has always pulled me out of such moments.
I don't know if you can even realize what it is to have God on your side porton and to know that He is on your side because He has forgiven you of all of your sins.
I no longer care whether I ever achieve much of anything in this life from a natural perspective. I have God. And if I have Him, I have everything I could possibly want in Him. I can enjoy a life with God that nothing I could ever have in this life would ever come close to giving me.
I could die tonight and die content. Knowing that I never accomplished much in this life. Knowing that I wasted many years of my life. Doing nothing and going nowhere. Making wrong choices. But knowing too that the Lord is with me and that I would die with something more valuable than anything this life has to offer. I would die with the Lord at my side. I would die having a relationship with God!! I would die forgiven. I would die into the arms of my loving Saviour. What a way to die!! What a glorious way to go porton!!!
I used to want to become this big preacher. Moving the masses. Speaking out boldly for God and being used greatly by Him. No more. I am content to just have Jesus! And to enjoy my relationship with Him.
I still speak for Him (I am here). I still share what He teaches me. But it's not to become somebody porton. I already am somebody in Him. He bought me with His blood. I am valuable to Him.
I don't have to strive to be somebody anymore. I don't have to worry and be concerned if I don't have much opportunity in this life to do something significant. I have Him! And what greater significance can there be than to walk alongside God. To bring pleasure to Him by what I think or do with the days I have remaining.
Don't get me wrong porton. I am still encased in a sinful nature. I still fall. I still doubt. I still lust - yes lust. Sometimes I have done things that a Christian ought not to do. Like gone off and viewed pornography on the Internet or worse.
But I know that I am forgiven. Christ died for all my sins. ALL my sins. And I can turn from my sin, get up, and continue to walk at His side.
My short reply has turned into a long discourse but I wanted you to get a glimpse of why I am a Christian porton. It's more than just because I believe the bible is true. It is. But it's far more than that.
Becoming a Christian was probably the hardest thing I ever did in life. I struggled and struggled before God to wiggle my way into His forgiveness without giving up the right to call the shots in my own life. It was a matter of wills. His will verses mine.
I sensed Him coming close. It was a scary thing for me porton. I couldn't hide anymore. And I knew that if I turned my back on Him then that I would probably harden my heart and end up in hell. I didn't want that porton.
I saw how worthless all my attempts to be good had been. I saw that in the eyes of God, compared to His holiness and righteousness, I was nothing. My good deeds were like filthy rags. I came to the place of realizing that I could not save myself no matter what I did.
And that I needed to make a decision. Just as you do too porton.
You go to a Christian school porton. So you are probably aware of or have heard most of what I or others here have shared with you.
Let me share something with you porton. You can ask all the questions in the world and perhaps get great answers. Only to come up with other questions and get still more great answers. But you will never, ever get to a point where there will be no more questions. No more possible doubts. No more uncertainties.
At some point you must choose to act in faith. Faith is acting on something you know in your head to be true but which you have not seen with your eyes porton. It starts in your heart and works itself out into what you do.
One can become a Christian by drawing near to God through faith in what the Bible says about the death of Christ. That faith might manifest itself in different ways. It's not the way that is important porton. It's the faith that is expressed through what you do that is.
One can express faith in what the Bible says about Christ by saying a sincere sinner's prayer. Or by being baptized. Or even by posting a prayer that comes from your heart on this thread. It is all faith expressing itself outwardly porton. One can do any of these things without faith in God and it won't do any good. So it's not the doing of these things (i.e. praying, being baptized, going up at an altar call, etc..) that saves a person. It is the faith in God being expressed through these acts that does.
There is no way around the need to act in faith porton. No way. You will never know for sure in the natural that God is there. Not 100%. If you did there would be no need for faith.
You will only experience the reality of God AFTER you act in faith.
The bible says that he who comes to God must believe that He is and that He is a rewarder of those who come to Him. By faith.
He is there porton. You just don't see Him with your eyes. Like every other person who ever became a Christian, you must choose to act in faith. To let go and entrust yourself into the arms of God completely. Without reservation. If you don't...you cannot be saved. If you don't accept what Jesus did for you on the cross there is nothing else by which you can be saved.
Carlos
PS. By the way is your name Amy? I noticed you signed off as that at the end of your previous post. Not that it makes any difference to me but I am curious.