Hi, my name is Lindsey Mcfarren and I'm addicted to Dr. Pepper. I admit that if it were to suddenly become illegal, I might be driven to illegal acts to obtain a supply for my own personal use, I of course would NOT become a dealer in the illegal substance.
In 2005, I drove home to Texas to spend some time with family AND pack up some things that my Mother wanted me to have (alot of breakables) and drive back home pulling a U-haul. I got caught up in a family NIGHTMARE and whenever I felt overwhelmed I would reach for a Dr. Pepper. While I was there I so depleted the local supply the Dallas plant had to step up production to meet the increased need.
I suffer from anxiety and panic attacks but at the time I was not taking Paxil to treat it, I was taking regular infusions of Dr. Pepper instead. I have never liked tea of coffee, just Dr. Pepper. I could have hung an IV and dripped it straight into my vein. I do understand that Caffiene is a stimulant but for some reason, it has always settled my nerves.
Only a month after I got back, I had an attack of kidney stones. It was THE most painful thing I have ever been through in my life. Demerol didn't even touch the pain, I would have preferred someone dropping an anvil on my head to knock me out then what they actually did. I vowed to give up my beloved Dr. Pepper. I ended up to limiting myself to only one a month or so. I didn't drink any other kind of soda either, sticking to LOTS of bottled water and some juice and milk.
NOW, I'm telling myself that the stones were due to the amount I was drinking and that I can get away with drinking it responsibly
, only one a day. Thats my story and I'm sticking to it.
I would normally just have a Dr. Pepper when we would go to our favorite Tex Mex place. BECAUSE as we all know, Dr. Pepper is so good with Mexican food. BUT lets be honest, its SO good with a hamburger, its awesome with chocolate, its fabulous with my white cheddar cheetos. The only time I can think of that its BAD, is right after you have brushed your teeth.
The other morning, I had to work at 9 but I had not slept all night. I had to run to the grocery store for a couple small things after my daughter went to school and I tripped and fell along the path of abstinence. I had a Dr. Pepper. OH MY GOD, the feeling that went through my body, I was jacked up on that $hit all day. It was AWESOME, I got so much done, I didn't get tired, I moved furniture, cleaned the house. I felt SO good. Maybe there is some heavenly effect when Paxil comingles with Dr. Pepper in my system but I decided I needed more stimulants in my life there and then. If you know me very well at all, you know I recently lost one of my beloved pets, it has had me really down but with Dr. Pepper, I felt so much better!!
NOW my reasoning is that I can control my addiction, I can limit it to just ONE a day in the morning before I start work. I can stop anytime.
BUT I don't WANT to stop, I WANT my Dr. Pepper.
I remember one time I had stopped drinking Dr. Pepper after my Father had passed away. I again had become SO stressed that I was drinking too much. I stopped it cold turkey, I got the withdrawal headaches like a big dog. It was awful but at least I had it out of my system. Then I went to the UK and spent three months. While there I got pneumonia. Well this might come as a shock but Dr. Pepper tastes SO good when your sick
. AND believe it or not I was able to find it at Tescos in the UK. My old friend kept me from feeling so homesick when I was coughing up a lung. OH it also tastes so good when your taking medication to remove that chalky taste from your mouth. It was then I also realized it was especially good in combination with those truncheon sized Toblerone bars of chocolate that I first discovered in the UK years ago.
Today I went to the grocery store and gave into my addiction. I purchased a 12 pack. My daughter came home from school and scolded me like I had left a crack pipe out on the counter or fallen back into a bottle of booze. I told her I was going to limit myself to only one a day in the morning. She was not impressed with my declaration.
I have a keychain that is a 6 pack of Dr. Pepper, I have chapstick that looks like a can of Dr. Pepper. I had to force myself to walk away when I found that they had T-shirts and baseball hats of Dr. Pepper. I used to use an avatar of Dr. Pepper and am DYING to have a mouse pad.
I LOVE the way it bubbles up when you pour it over ice, I love the smell and the sound and best of all the taste of it when you take your first drink first thing in the morning. It is absolutely HEAVEN over vanilla ice cream, that is when it truly shines.
I am sinking into my addiction, I can feel it.
I have to go back and get that T-shirt.
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