Holiday Blues, Depression Support Group!! BACK!

[Gerania]

I do that, too. I don't need a lot of people; just one will do. There are far too many people in this world who are or feel alone.

[nightbird47]

Yesterday was a bummer. My son is moving two states closer in a couple of weeks and I wanted sizes so I could send a gift they'll appreciate with the cold. He was supposed to call. I'm guessing he forgot again. He does this all the time. Ordinarily I would have been okay with just watching a few movies and playing with the kittens, but it brought back all the old bad stuff. I was pretty bummed by the whole thing.

I've gone to former husband's house before I moved and it kept away the missing mom and dad and family. They are family. But holidays still remind me of how my family is either gone or moved away.

[Atlguy39]

For me, this year was strangely easier. Its the 6th year without my ex-wife, and the first one I didn't really miss her. Well, maybe the second one. Last year I had a girlfriend and was happy. So while I hate the holidays, its not with the same amount of dread as it was in previous years. Maybe I'm finally used to being alone. I'm not sure if thats good or not because I'd love to have my own family to celebrate with. I won't get to experience that though.

[Mightyqueen801]

I was so expecting to feel awful this year because my daughter moved overseas, but I was pretty busy, and I had a friend visiting who just lost her mom in October. She never married or had kids, so she is alone except for two sisters she really doesn't get along with. However, they promised the mother on her deathbed that they would keep in touch, so she came up from out of state to spend Christmas with the sister who lives near me, but stayed by me because they can't take each other for too long at once.

I spent Christmas Day with my mother and my two brothers who live with her. Both brothers, way younger than I, have physical issues right now, and both were in relationships that ended this past year. So there we sat, the three Losers-In-Love siblings, with our 86-year-old mother on Christmas Day. It was OK, though. Had a nice dinner. We'll have a real family party next week when we get together with the rest of the siblings, the ones who have partners and families and better things to do on Christmas!

[nightbird47]

I don't miss the family (borrowed but family) the rest of the year but do miss getting together. But the weather had decided to go into winter mode, and going out appeals much less. My son and his wife are moving out of California, a few states closer, and we've been playing phone tag. I finnally got to talk to him night before last. I feel very positive about the whole thing. They have a nice sized apartment, and both he and his wife have full time jobs with full benefits. They are so excited. I feel good about it since he's gotten to be very responsible with money and plans. The stuff which drove me to move away effected him too, and I think moving to a new place might help clear out the cobwebs.

I've been working on a stitching which is free form, and I'd love to finish, mostly since I have my large collection of wool yarns sitting out as when I need a color I need to eyeball it. I scored a treasure a few years ago at a used book store where she got five boxes of embroidery stuff along with boxes of books and sold it to me for 30 dollars. A whole large plastic storage tub full of stuff which will make many projects with a big choice of colors. They are all spread out on the table in the living room right now. I just want this one to finish so I can start another one.

But I feel good. After all the problems, it looks like my son had found his feet and is taking charge of his life as well, and summer after next they'll have vacation and plan to come out and make a visit. Her family lived right down the street from us when they were both little kids and we both moved. Its like they were meant to be together, and I'm so glad for him.

I've got some physical problems which need to be solved, and feel a pull to make my world a little bigger and have promised myself to work on that.

[Sickandtiredofthis]

Feeling depressed after coming back from America yesterday. I wasn't ready to leave yet.

I had so many good memories with my family and really enjoyed it. I was so sad at the airport.