Living with insecurities, mood swings, and self-doubt (thoughts, feeling, child)

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I wanted to get some feed back on how others possibly handle these issues in their life: self-doubt, insecurities, mood swings, and negative thought patterns

Just a bit of a back story on me-

The issues that i have I believe pertain to past relationships, I have never been in one that I was not cheated on or miss treated in relationships with both men and women. My longest relationship was with a woman that I was with for 16 years, and we eventually got married. The stupidest decision I have ever made, I must mention. We are divorced, and she is already re-married. During our marriage she cut me, left me and rented an apartment with another woman behind my back. Cheated on me repeatedly, even with my sister, and hated when I would do anything for my children and was very jealous of my granddaughter.

I am engaged to the most wonderful woman who loves me, my children and my grandchildren very much. She is the kindest and most humble woman that I have ever met. The issues lie within me, and my fear of being abandoned again. I can be having a great day and then all of a sudden out of know where I have these negative thoughts that affect my moods and I cannot turn them off.

I dont want to live in fear, and I dont want my fear to ruin my relationship with her or our marriage. Plus I dont want it to ruin relationships that I have with others like my friends and family. I hate this part about myself. I know that I am a good person and have so much to offer, I just cannot shake the feeling when I start to have it that this is all to good to be true.

has anyone else ever felt this way and if so how did you cope with or manage it?

[Zelpha]

You mentioned living with mood swings, insecurities, and self doubts, and it seems those feelings are tied into your past relationship that you miss.

Perhaps immerse yourself in a hobby or two that boost your self esteem.

It takes time to heal from a broken heart and sometimes the aching never completely goes away but over time it will decrease a little at a time.

Take some time to think of who and how you'd like to be, then take your time to become that stronger, wiser, weathered person.