Burnout, stress, life, and work (smoking, sleep, eat, make)

[RunD1987]

Hi, posted a few times on here about stress. My family is a bit dysfunctional at times and kind of survival of the fittest. Normally talk about each other behind each other's back, which I assume is normal. My mom hasn't blamed me in awhile for her drinking and smoking.

Anyways going off on tangents might be a bit through this post.

I feel like a jerk when my mom and I talk about work. I become defensive and tell her that she has never worked in the environment I do. I feel guilty don't mean to have this superiority complex. My mom tells me to suck it up, your young, and should only focus on work.

With my work I love my job. I am back doing a job I love to do. The hospital and Co worker's are amazing. Only downside it's part time, which most of the summer I am scheduled full time not to bad. However, I am variable shifts which means I work morning second morning morning second shift. My hours are all over the place difficult to balance life with work out. Especially since work is chaotic at times it's stressful just too exhausted or can't find time to burn steam off.

That kind of happen to me where I became irritable and exhausted. Started eating more, sleeping less, and not exercising any more. I took two day's off to rekax, went camping when I had off of work in the middle of the week. However, mom kind of thinks blowing my money away when I should save it. I do need to save money to find my own place again, since living at home again since laid off last May.

Anyways I put a transfer for a night position with work. I feel my boss will allow me to transfer if I train for this new position in the department to pick up extra hour's. However, with my schedule be working evenings then come in during the morning work evenings ahain. I am just asking to make myself worse.

From my mom's comments I feel weak inferior.

I don't know what's going in with me need some feedback.