A fear Im struggling with (long, get, make, tell)

[Loudsco]

I have this deep deep fear. Probably one of my biggest fears ever.

A long time ago, id say a year or so, I used to go on Omegle.com a lot. its a site like chatroulette where you can chat with strangers.

Well Id say maybe a handful of times. 5 or 6 possibly, I used to experiment with my bi curiosity by getting naked on cam. I was 18-19 at the time and really dumb, not thinking about the future.

I found out later that i really wasnt into dudes or gay stuff, but the fact that I have been online in the past doing gay things...it scares me. It scares me that someone took a screen shot of me. I am already looking into getting a tattoo on my arm removed so i cant somehow get identified with a potential picture.

I have been made offers here and there to model, do some acting, etc, but part of me is afraid to get known...what if something in my past gets exposed? It makes me terribly afraid.

Anything ive done online being traced back to me kind of scares me. But i do know naked dudes on omegle is common. so maybe its nothing? Should i be afraid? Afraid to be too known?

[purehuman]

No, don't be afraid.
Ask yourself...
Will your fear change anything?
Can it get you those pictures back?
What you did online is virtual...not comparable in my mind as reality.
There's nothing wrong with experimenting...as you did. It helped you to discover who you really are/aren't. Don't be afraid of that.
We all do things we may wish we hadn't...it's a human thing to do.
Don't be ashamed.

[Hollytree]

You used your real name on line associated with the photos? I'm assuming "yes" since you were offered jobs as a "model"?

Big problem! It's virtually impossible to get things off line. Consider changing your name so this doesn't follow you into employment, etc. Everyone googles names now from employers to schools to landlords, etc.

On the other hand, if you used a fake name, get your tattoo removed and then try to forget that you were once immature enough to do such a thing.

[Billy_J]

Tell me... If you have any naked pictures of other people saved off the internet, do you also have the person's name and contact information saved along with that?

Or just the picture?

It seems to me people who look at naughty pictures could care less what the name or personal information is! As a matter of fact, I don't recall seeing any "contact" information along with these photos.

Don't worry about it, people are only looking at the pictures and have no interest in your name. And if they are hiring you for a job, they would be interested in if you could do that job, not what you can do in bed! I don't think it matters to people these days anyway...