Totally Lost...Wanna move to the mainland with my family... (Kailua: apartment, loans)

[estherw808]

Thank you @Hawaiian by Heart
I am glad you had noticed that I was referring to him only. Also I deleted it not to hide it but so no one else would get the wrong idea. Please everyone refer back to my OP? #1.
Did I come on here referring anything to anyone about giving me money. No ways not even once!
I am saddened that this is all people can do, think the worst of others.

[hawaiian by heart]

Originally Posted by estherw808

Lol hey tdr22. He only quoted me on part of what I wrote. So if you didnt read anything else too bad. It was a message for him and only him. I took it down to prove I am not on here for pity or donations!! Ewww just ewww.

Think one thing you should know if you haven't noticed yet? Is this forum is dominated with malahine and transplants from the mainland, they have money so its really not crazy to understand there point of views and realities. We could use more locals who have the local mind and the culture awareness too balance everything out.

[estherw808]

But hey you know what @hawaiian? Its okay. My intentions when I came on this forum which I found via Google btw (lol) was and is pure. So its okay, and kinda not okay because I am worried about getting this kind of flap back when I head to the mainland......auwe...but yeah its okay because they will learn hopefully.

[hawaiian by heart]

Originally Posted by estherw808

But hey you know what @hawaiian? Its okay. My intentions when I came on this forum which I found via Google btw (lol) was and is pure. So its okay, and kinda not okay because I am worried about getting this kind of flap back when I head to the mainland......auwe...but yeah its okay because they will learn hopefully.

Naw sister we have special kind on CDF here. You will be ok. Here maybe can share some of my aloha to you?


HAPA - Lei Manoa. Live at the Tiki Terrace, Des Plaines, IL - YouTube


Hapa - Tuahine (HiSessions.com Acoustic Live!) - YouTube

[estherw808]

Thank you! Very beautiful. Are you in any of the videos?

[hawaiian by heart]

Originally Posted by estherw808

Thank you! Very beautiful. Are you in any of the videos?

Naw not me, god didn't give me that talent. My aloha comes from the culture, music, aina and people of Hawai'i. I especially like HAPA because they represent the diversity of our home but also you can feel there mana or energy good. And ya i one ol' ***.

Funny they cencer fart in pidgin.

Have you decided what to do yet about your situation?

[Sherwoody]

Originally Posted by hawaiian by heart

Naw sister we have special kind on CDF here. You will be ok. Here maybe can share some of my aloha to you?


HAPA - Lei Manoa. Live at the Tiki Terrace, Des Plaines, IL - YouTube


Hapa - Tuahine (HiSessions.com Acoustic Live!) - YouTube

I knew Barry well back in the early 90's. I know his story since then but I had heard from a friend he had straightened himself up. He is not looking well in the second video.

[estherw808]

I wish I was more in tune with Hawaiian music, sad to say I barely know anything about my heritage.

And I honestly want to move to the mainland. I wouldnt mind moving to Kentucky? I have been researching and it seems to have all my needs and wants.
I am just scared off my butt because I have never been away from home(Oahu). Going on our own? At 23 with fur kids.
I believe though if this is meant to be it will be
Still waiting on my background check. Tomorrow makes 5 days. If this works out then I will definitely be moving. I don't care if we get lost trying to find places.
Tired of living here. We tried staying at the Kakaako Next Step Shelter for awhile. Ainsley my baby was still 2 months old. I loved it because there was always peace, no one breathing down my neck or stealing my belongings. Then we started to see what it was really like:/ The staff infections were horrible. Ambulance came and picked up kids and older people like twice a week.
After that my husband and I both had our wallets stolen.
Easier for me to get back my papers because Im a US Citizen, my husband is from Kosrae.
Long story short. Yeah we lost his work papers, and we got the heck outta there before my kids especially my baby girl ended up with staff.
The only thing I miss? Feeling independent. Feeling at peace. Damn sucks being back under someone elses roof. Bleh!!! I wanna get outta here;(

[whtviper1]

Hey - at least you've got internet access!

[estherw808]

Hahha yes I do internet and nextflix. All on my phone. And my Hay Day game. They keep me sane.
Is it raining hard in Kailua too? I think its the whole island. Im just thankful though, this weather has been horrible!!!