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Originally Posted by Areyouserious?
I think its gross too, but let'em be. Do you honestly think they WANT to be that way?
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I nearly shed a tear while reading that phrase, as you're probably the FIRST person I've ever come across who just summed up the way I've felt about myself for my entire life. Thank you very much for your understanding!
Why in God's name would anyone WANT to subject themselves to a life of being viewed by many fellow Americans as being "inferior", "unclean", and "morally reprehensible?"
Believe me, I even lead a girl on for nearly a year in a high school relationship that I knew would ultimately end in disaster just to see if I could "change myself", as well as please my parents in their incessant nagging for me to secure a girlfriend. No matter how much I tried to fall in love with this girl, I still felt like we were nothing more than just good friends. I had no sexual attraction to her whatsoever, and any thought of intimacy with her terrified me!
Comparatively speaking, I'm sure a heterosexual male would be just as terrified and uninterested in being intimately-related with a member of the same sex as I am with the opposite sex. My guilt about this relationship was incessant; I even spent $300 on her on Valentine's Day on a fancy meal at one of Scranton's tonier restaurants, Godiva chocolates, roses, a movie, etc. just to assuage the pain I was feeling inside for leading her on in love with me just to appease my parents.
Then again, I suppose straight people would prefer that all gay males would "go back in the closet" and begin dating single women, allowing them to fall in love with them while the males had no attraction for them whatsoever. The pain that poor girl must have felt inside when she found out I was gay must have been insurmountable!
Do you really want millions of other men to do the same, ruining the hearts of millions of women just to make you straights happier?
Personally, I don't know what beef staight guys have with gay guys---Aren't we doing you all a service by broadening the dating pool for YOU by dating each other?
If anything, you'd suspect that straight women would abhor gay men for stealing away potential boyfriends, yet just the opposite occurs---Straight women love me while straight men hate me! Why? Believe me, while the stereotype is that all gay males are sexually indecent, the furthest thing on my mind is overpowering and sodomizing a straight guy, so there's not any reason to worry about that! Sheesh! Talk about insecurity!
Let me pose you all with a scenario. Suppose God came down to Earth tomorrow and asked 1/5 of all straight males on Earth to become gay to help curtail world overpopulation. How many of you supposedly "God-fearing Republican right-wing Conservatives" would be able to instantly change your sexual orientations and view someone such as myself in a romantic light?
Don't you think the same can be said for people in my position? I'm under the impression right now that God wants me to be straight, but I've found it impossible to become attracted to women, even with counseling!
What makes you Republicans so sure that changing one's sexual orientation is as simple as changing the batteries in your smoke detector?
Furthermore, what gives any of you the right to
judge others for their sinful yet harmless behaviors? Just because you find it appalling doesn't mean that it's illegal! Why don't you leave the sentencing for GOD on Judgment Day? If God is going to condemn me to hell for being unable to conform to what society wants me to be, then I'll accept my fate; It's NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS otherwise to be legislating how I should or should not be allowed to live my romantic life!
I feel as if this whole "anti-gay witch hunt" of sorts if just a last ditch effort by Republicans to salvage their Congressional domination just before Election Day. Since they know that they can't portray the War in Iraq or the economy in a very rosy picture, they instead turn to the "If you elect democrats, they'll let gays get married; just look at Jersey!" scare tactics to reconnect with their Conservative base!
Unfortunately, there are enough morons in this country who vote solely on the "gay issue" while ignoring foreign affairs, economic policy, etc. to probably win victory once again for the Republican majority in both the House and Senate, at which point I'll consider relocation to Ontario, where people seem to care less about who you love and more about what you can contribute to society!
Here I am on my 20th birthday crying my eyes out because I'm already having a mid-life crisis---Do I make another girl miserable and make myself guilt-stricken just to please my family and the rest of the nation, or do I follow my heart and condemn myself to hell?