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Originally Posted by John1960
It's very hard to put a dog asleep when she is looking around and her ears was pointing up. She seemed to know something was wrong, I will never forget this and don't know if I could do this again. Doctor said she had heart failure which caused fluid to builded up and also the doctor said she had cancer in the heart and kidney failure.
John
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John, I am so very sorry. I know the pain you must be dealing with, as I had to put my beloved Teddy Bear to sleep last year. He had free floating liquid built up in his abdomen - probably cancer. I was so distraught I cannot even remember.
Anyway, here are a couple of poems I found in other threads at CD. I hope you find some healing in them:
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The Loss Of A Dear Friend
I stood by your bed last night,
I came to have a peep.
I could see that you were crying,
you found it hard to sleep.
I whined to you so softly as you brushed away a tear,
"It's me, I haven't left you, I'm well, I'm fine, I'm here."
I was close to you at breakfast,
I watched you pour your tea.
You were thinking of the many times,
your hands reached out to me.
I was with you at the shops today,
your arms were getting sore.
I longed to take your parcels,
I wish I could do more.
I was with you at my grave today,
you tend it with such care.
I want to reassure you,
that I am not lying there.
I walked with you towards the house,
as you fumbled for your key.
I gently put my paw on you,
I smiled and said, "It's me."
You looked so very tired,
and sank into a chair.
I tried so hard to let you know,
that I was standing there.
It's possible for me to be so near you everyday.
To say with certainty, "I never went away."
You sat there very quiet, then smiled, I think you knew..
In the stillness of that evening,
I was very close to you.
The day is over now... I smile and watch you yawning,
And say, "Goodnight, God bless, I'll see you in the morning."
And when the time is right for you to cross the brief divide,
I'll rush across to greet you,
and we'll stand side by side.
I have so many things to show you,
there is so much for you to see.
Be patient, live your journey out...
Then come home and be with me.
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You're giving me a special gift,
So sorrowfully endowed,
And through these last few cherished days,
Your courage makes me proud.
But really, love is knowing
When your best friend is in pain,
And understanding earthly acts
Will only be in vain.
So looking deep into your eyes,
Beyond, into your soul,
I see in you the magic, that will
Once more make me whole.
The strength that you possess,
Is why I look to you today,
To do this thing that must be done,
For it's the only way.
That strength is why I've followed you,
And chose you as my friend,
And why I've loved you all these years...
My partner till the end.
Please, understand just what this gift
You're giving, means to me,
It gives me back the strength I've lost,
And all my dignity.
You take a stand on my behalf,
For that is what friends do.
And know that what you do is right,
For I believe it too.
So one last time, I breathe your scent,
And through your hand I feel,
The courage that's within you,
To now grant me this appeal.
Cut the leash that holds me here,
Dear friend, and let me run,
Once more a strong and steady dog,
My pain and struggle done.
And don't despair my passing,
For I won't be far away,
Forever here, within your heart,
And memory I'll stay.
I'll be there watching over you,
Your ever faithful friend,
And in your memories I'll run,
... a young dog once again.