Has anyone else felt this way in their romantic relationships? (love, family)

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[FONT=Calibri][SIZE=3]I find myself constantly doubting ALL decisions/choices Imake during my relationships. I feel like I constantly need to go either oninternet forums, friends or family to validate whether what I feel is justifiedor not. Of course, sometimes things in relationships make me feel sad or upset,so I cannot control the emotions I feel as a result but I do seek help fromothers to determine whether my feelings of sadness, disappointment, anger etcare justified or not. At the end of each relationship, I’m left feeling with ahuge amount of guilt, and I constantly self-blame and hold myself responsiblefor the relationship of the failure completely. I obsess and see myself as thishorrible person – and it obviously doesn’t help if your partner reaffirmseverything you already believe about yourself, and tells you that you areresponsible for all the failures within the relationship. [/SIZE][/FONT]
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[FONT=Calibri][SIZE=3]Sometimes, I can’t even determine HOW I feel about someone.I can’t determine whether I do love them or not, because I see myself asincapable of it. Maybe it’s a lack of experience or my past history, I don’tknow. But it leads me to a very self-destructive state. Does anyone else feelthis way? Or has felt this way, how did you overcome it?[/SIZE][/FONT]
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[SIZE=3][FONT=Calibri]Thank you for reading [/FONT][FONT=Wingdings][FONT=Wingdings]J[/FONT][/FONT][FONT=Calibri][/FONT][/SIZE]
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