Well somethng is going on here isn't it?
Do you think that it's wrong to look at porn? I'm not saying yes or no. I just want to know why you cried.
I really rather suspect that it isn't the porn itself that is bothering you. You would not have checked unless there was
"A fly behind the ear" (as we say in Spain)... it means a niggling suspicion.
Do you suspect him of being unfaithful? Watching porn can sometimes indicate that his sex life is for some reason unflfilling for him. This is especially so when he does so in secret or if the porn is odd in some way. I don't mean freaky either. An old client of mine (I'm a relationship coach) found
"Asian teens" favorited on her husbands computer. Now all the "models" were of legal age ofconsent so it isn't pervy or anything strange like that but seeing as he is French and she is a blond Italian girl, it indicates a possible
veering away from the home bedroom wouldnt you say?
So was the porn a veering away or was it perverse?
If it was perverse then in all probability there is something wrong. He is probably dissatisfied and needs to talk openly about his sexual needs. He may even need to go to councelling. If it's like really weird then I would suggest it.
Now probably its not actually perverse but a (as I have said) a veering away from the home bedroom. Right?
Questions to think about (You don't have to answer on this forum)
How is the sexual energy flowing between you and he? Is it a bit stifled compared to before? Do you regularly make out? Yeah I know it's a teenage word but when you "make out" it all goes back to being fun and young. It's invigourating. Is there some sexual activity that you see on the porn that you and he dont do? Is it "normal" enough to do? Ok I'm not talking about ssome nasty stuff here (There is some very nasty porn goin round... er... so I'm told
) jujst things that maybe giving him excitemnt that he has not dared ask for. Maybe?
Perhaps it's the male need fo variety of partner. I don't want to shock you but it's a very real need. Porn is sometimes a fantasy and a way of
"blowing out" the desire for other females. It indicates that this desires is not being dealt with correctly. This can be overcome in different ways---
1. Playing games: You simply pretend to be someone else. Let him be James bond and you can be Urslula Andres. Meet at a hotel for sex and buy a new dress, get a new haircut and a suntan or something I dont know. Go to sex shop and buy some fun stuff.
How did all that feel to you? Did you freak? Did you go "Yeah that ounds good" because your level of sexual flow with him can be measured by sucha response. He sounds like he needs to feel that sexual flow. Porn will lose importance when the sexual flow increases.
2. Sex night: Make a date forsex and go to all the extremes that you would ifyou were dating. He must also go to those extremes... dressing up, flowers and everything.
3. OK the
responsability is really on YOU because you asked but on HIM to have the integrity to not be unfaithful ever, to use his sexual energy only on you, to increase the sexual tension between you, to not waste sexual energy watching porn and single handedly "self entertaining".
I hope you take this advice seriously. You BOTH have a great responsibility to create the relationship that you desire. The porn is a warning bell that the sexual energy between you needs improving.
Take care now
Brendan