So post holiday depression, I feel better now, like a candle that has been relit inside of me, like my battery has been recharged. Despite being around close friends this holiday I fell into a sad state of mind. There were a few reasons why, though I have so much to be greatful for , though sometimes I guess a person can forget, actually I didn't forget I just chose to dwell on superficial things and sets backs that have occured in 2009 and things I haven't met my expectations about myself...yet.
But when the going got tough, when I was feeling down and lost, I did what I did before , which I should do more and like before, a feeling of comfort and ease and light and just relief came to me. And like in the past, I have never been let down, somehow someway it works out, I shouldn't have doubted or forgot that although I guess sometimes we need to be reminded that the light is there if only we ask, and to not worry about tommorrow it will take care of itself and that treasures on Earth are pointless compared.
Even as I was reminded of the most important things, afterward even a treasure on Earth of mine came back after I asked and had found peace of not dwelling on it anymore. Amazing.....
I had a great peaceful weekend, for the past few nights sleeping alone somehow I felt not alone, all of a sudden instead of negative feelings of the last week and setbacks recently I feel hopeful and inspired for what will come this new year.
LOL, I was so mellowed and at ease I found some sitar music and just reflected for a while last night. And all weekend for the most part I worked at bettering myself with a positive attitude in this case getting solos the for Black Crowes Hard to handle, Collective soul Gel, and Quiet Riot Feel the noize down, well in the process of getting them down.
So what is the point of my ramble?. Well I guess the point is sometimes we forget what we have, sometimes we dwell on what hasn't happened or what happened that was bad, or what we don't have and we become dark in the heart from it. I was reminded and refreshed in my own personal way by asking for light, and I was answered like I was before, there is a rythym and reason to this universe even when we can't or forget to realize it.
If you are ever feeling down, or bitter, or hope seems lost, it can get better. I just need to remember that myself to...
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