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A while back someone used that phrase to me, "a rich inner life" here and she saved my life. I did not value the rich inner life I had. It gave my life value. I don't remember who said it to me but I stopped thinking suicidal thoughts because of it and I just want to say thank you because now I have found value in my life where I couldn't find it before and when I say the phrase to someone else it seems to blow their mind, too! THANK YOU.
Heartfocus, I as well as many others were concerned about you and wondered how you were doing. Thanks so much for posting.
I believe it was NewEngland Girl who said that about the rich inner life. She may have changed her name to River Bird. Pretty amazing that someone helped you so much just by posting that. That's one of the beauties of life--everything is interconnected and we can't ever fully know the impact that someone can have on our life or we can have on someone else's. So--life can be worth living since some help/relief/equanimity/peace may be just a minute/post/activity/book/song away.
Her post also resonated with me since I sometimes get distraught about stuff that doesn't go right for me (the stuff I can't control--which is almost everything, when you think about it). But the one thing that can go right for me (and you and others) is our inner life---the interesting thoughts we can have, the good attitude, the meaning we can find in our existence and the quest for meaning, etc. I think this was what Viktor Frankl wrote about in Man's Search for Meaning as he suffered in a concentration camp:
Heartfocus, I as well as many others were concerned about you and wondered how you were doing. Thanks so much for posting.
I believe it was NewEngland Girl who said that about the rich inner life. She may have changed her name to River Bird. Pretty amazing that someone helped you so much just by posting that. That's one of the beauties of life--everything is interconnected and we can't ever fully know the impact that someone can have on our life or we can have on someone else's. So--life can be worth living since some help/relief/equanimity/peace may be just a minute/post/activity/book/song away.
Her post also resonated with me since I sometimes get distraught about stuff that doesn't go right for me (the stuff I can't control--which is almost everything, when you think about it). But the one thing that can go right for me (and you and others) is our inner life---the interesting thoughts we can have, the good attitude, the meaning we can find in our existence and the quest for meaning, etc. I think this was what Viktor Frankl wrote about in Man's Search for Meaning as he suffered in a concentration camp:
Thank you! Basically she said that even if she were a quadriplegic or paraplegic, she could still find meaning because she could read or watch You Tube videos and things on the internet. That's basically what I do all the time. Thanks for the book tip.
I have been wondering about the meaning of my life..... why am I even here? I have depression/anxiety and take meds to help it. Lately it seems that dark cloud is following me all over the place. I've never taken any action to leave this world, but I sure have thought about it a lot. My new counselor is probably the first one to really "hear" that from me. I keep telling her it won't happen (I'm too chicken) but I guess if I keep thinking about it, eventually I could convince myself.
So many people I know have what sounds like to me such fulfilling, good lives, at least that is what I hear from them. Family, kids, grandkids, the works. I have a hard time telling someone who to call if I have an emergency. When I was younger I didn't worry so much about it, I just thought so what? Who cares anyway. As I get older, for some reason it has become important to me, sort of.
I had asked a relative if he would be my health proxy/go-to person and he agreed. Now he has a serious illness and I don't feel good about expecting him to do that for me.
I believe I am not the only person who has this problem. But there are days when it feels very lonely out there.
I have been wondering about the meaning of my life..... why am I even here? I have depression/anxiety and take meds to help it. Lately it seems that dark cloud is following me all over the place. I've never taken any action to leave this world, but I sure have thought about it a lot. My new counselor is probably the first one to really "hear" that from me. I keep telling her it won't happen (I'm too chicken) but I guess if I keep thinking about it, eventually I could convince myself.
So many people I know have what sounds like to me such fulfilling, good lives, at least that is what I hear from them. Family, kids, grandkids, the works. I have a hard time telling someone who to call if I have an emergency. When I was younger I didn't worry so much about it, I just thought so what? Who cares anyway. As I get older, for some reason it has become important to me, sort of.
I had asked a relative if he would be my health proxy/go-to person and he agreed. Now he has a serious illness and I don't feel good about expecting him to do that for me.
I believe I am not the only person who has this problem. But there are days when it feels very lonely out there.
I gave up thinking those kinds of things a long time ago. I decided that I just don't know and, over time, decided I really don't care. I'm here, I'm doing what I have to do and surviving. Only once did suicide EVER enter my mind and I think I was about 16 and mad at my parents about something, who knows what. I remember thinking that if I died, boy, would THEY be sorry! Then it hit me...if I died I wouldn't be around to "enjoy their misery" so why bother?
I have the same dilemma as to who my 'contact' should be in case of an emergency. I can only think of one and he's got plenty of health issues going on himself at this point. My kids? No. Two of them live over 1,000 mi. away and the other one just doesn't seem to care much. None of this makes me feel "lonely" though. Just wondering...
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