So, after many years of being on CD and not posting much, here I go (I will be 50 this year).
I recently found my old tapes from several psychic readings done 1989, 1990, (my late twenties) and a horoscope reading. Very interesting hearing myself as a well as the psychic. I was obviously, in all readings desperate to know Who I would marry and when, any children etc...
All readings were done by well known, respected people, and very, very positive and constructive (if only I was mature enough to listen
), unfortunately none of it came true. I made some poor decisions out of neediness and depression. I have done alot of work these past years to come to terms with and understand why things turned out the way they did.
I'm thinking "free will" is the component that set my course to experience tragedy, OR was it destiny?
1. If I had NOT gone to the event in 1992 and met the person that led to the tragedy
, or had listened to my intuition, Would I have had the opportunity to live the very, very positive life as described in the readings? Or
2. Was it my karma to experience these negative events to learn and grow through adversity
? In which case why were the psychic readings so positive?
Of course, if the psychic readings had even hinted to what eventually unfolded, I would have run to the highest bridge
.
I have been reading Edgar Cayce, Brian Weiss, and others to come to terms with events, and eventually would like another reading or past life regression if the opportunity presents.
I enjoy many people here on CD and genuinely care about their well being. Any input is appreciated. Selnor