The answer to your question is this: No, you did not kill him. There is no evidence for the ability to kill another person by your thoughts. You may have wished him dead many times, but that does not mean that your negative thoughts caused his death.
Many evil people who have done terrible things lead long, healthy lives. Many good people who have helped others and led honorable lives have died in terrible suffering. Neither the thoughts of people they interacted with or the good or evil they did have anything to do with it.
You may flatter yourself by thinking you have more power than you actually do, but the best course is probably to seek counseling to put your suffering behind you.
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