Wife

I have been reflecting for a very long time on this, and have finally come up with why I have been so blessed in so many ways.

My Wife.

My Wife would do almost anything for anyone with in her abilities. Old people come to depend on her, because she is so helpful and knowledgeable, and able to do so much where thier family members and often Social Workers wont or can not do, but, she can circumvent around them and get things done!

I, myself have been her trial and tribulation for many a year, yet she has 'withstood' me, and worked around me and despite of all my inadequacies, has achieved a lot, using me and going around me and still loving me!

Maybe GOD has blessed all women, because the men are so inadequate at a lot of things and they are simply there to shore us up and show us how its done LOL... Mine sure has through out the years.

She even brought me back to Christ when I strayed into not believing, in my drinking days. Those were troublesome days, where I hated everything and everyone, including myself!! Yet, she stuck by me and showed me the path back to the LORD... I am so Blessed to have her as my Mate!

Its a shame that she had to go through my heavy drinking days, where I was a pure bastard about everything and destructive and hurtful...(No, I never hit my wife in those days, I just told her to go some place til I was over it, and many days she went to her Mothers and other places)

So, I have come to the conclusion that I have been Blessed only because I am married to my Wife, who is favored by the LORD for all that she is... A GOD fearing wonderful person who is loved by those who know her.

I hope that my Daughter gets to be that way, as her Mother, but, what ever path she takes will be her own and no one can choose it for her.

Ive always knew that all the silly things I have done, and came through, with out so much as a scratch or broken limbs, had to be special consideration by someone higher than myself, because I was down right reckless with my life at times.
My heart condition was just at a time when I needed to 'slow down' in my life, and the LORD made sure that I knew it.
Im looking at this disability as something that is a neccessity in my life too, and that it must be a trial for my Wife as well as Family. I know, with my passing out and almost dying those four times, it sure did put some scare into my family members, each and everyone of them at different times.

On a lighter note, I am finally growing a beard!!!
I shave around my mouth and no mustache, so that my Wife can kiss me with out a 'mouthful of hair' as she puts it, and as long as I can stand the beard, (wth the scratchiness and itchiness), I can keep it until she finally gets tired of seeing it on my face.

Last time, a young fella thought I was god when I sat up in the window at church, LOL.. So, I wont be sitting up there and confusing the young people anymore, if I ever get to go there again.

My thyroid has been diagnosed as 'low', so I am on medication again.
I complained to my Doctor that I have been busting my butt for over three years, exercising with weights and even walking years ago, and still not losing weight, (except those 30 pounds in water weight, and thats the only thing that fluctuates, in how much I drink that day or previous days leading up to weigh in time).
So, a blood test and pills later, and eventually I will see if I can do some damage to my weight loss method of busting my butt again at the YMCA, three times a week.

My Wife tells me that there are many patients in the Nursing Home who have thyroid problems and are heavy, but, they dont bust thier hump, working out, so I do have a sight advantage over them so far...
When it comes down to where I cant do this anymore, (I had to take pain meds the day after, because my back is screaming and I really hate doing that, though I can take as many as 3 a day, each and every day, I still like to reserve them to exercise day alone, so when I told my Wife I needed to take a pain pill, she automatically took notice, and sat a cup of coffee and a cold glass of water in front of me, at my computer, so I could take the meds). Since one isnt doing it, I may have to take those three pain meds, and fall asleep for most of the day. Thats what I hate, the sleeping part. As if I dont have anything to do with my day, but sleep through it and waste it, sheesh sheesh sheesh!!!!!!........

OK, enough whinning for the day, its time to get onto evony and see if I can capture a few castles, or save the ones I have LOL...

I wish you well...

Jesse