This blog is basically to chart my progress in trying to lose weight...
This is a Record of my daily events including my family when appropriate for my other family members to see if they choose to.
This is my legacy, for my family to read after I am dead and burried. So, any thing on here is meant for them only and if it offends anyone, my apologies, but, its not meant for you and them
Chow for now...
May the LORD Bless all who see this.
I wish you well...
Jesse
This is a Record of my daily events including my family when appropriate for my other family members to see if they choose to.
This is my legacy, for my family to read after I am dead and burried. So, any thing on here is meant for them only and if it offends anyone, my apologies, but, its not meant for you and them
Chow for now...
May the LORD Bless all who see this.
I wish you well...
Jesse
Watching and Loving You...
Posted 01-28-2014 at 09:55 AM by woodworkingmenace
I watch my Wife breathing and think "I wonder how much time we both have on this Earth?"
Your sitting on your easy chair, sleeping, and looking so peaceful. You make me love you more each day, just being there and being yourself all the time.
Your leg pain is getting worse, from your diabetes, so now, the Emergency Room has prescribed you vicodin too!
What in the World is happening to us, my love?
We wanted to spend the 'Golden Years' of our marriage, traveling, camping, and all those other plans we made before we were this age...
Now, with my back and poor health, and your diabetes and nerve pains, and other bad health ailments that you have, we are two broken down old folks who havent completed our dreams.
I reckon that a lot of folks are feeling the way we are now, but, its not the way I want to feel.
I want to feel the beach beneath my feet, with a pole in my hand, and a fish at the end of it LOL, and you by my side, sunning yourself and reading a book!
No Grandkids yet, though, we did have our kids late in life, and with all the health issues that our kids have, I dont think any of them want to have kids to pass them on to.
So, whats in store for us now? We grow old, take our medications for all the ailements we collect through out the remaining years, and die? This really sucks! sheesh!
I didnt work all those years, to get you a pension, so that you could spend it with me, a boken down old fool, who spent too much time at work, earning a living so my Wife and Family could eek out a living on my income and enjoy themselves at my expense, only to have it wasted on our old age.
As I watch you draw breath, going in and out of your body, Im left to wonder, will you out live me? I sure hope so! I hope you draw one more breath than I do, so I dont have to miss you when I die, and, so that you wont have time to miss me when I go too, and, that you will be with me in Heaven. But, remember, Heaven can always wait for another Angel in thier midst, so, take your time 'living', and I will take my time to enjoy your company as I do each and every day.
You make my World, from start to finish, I look upon you in the morning, and say good night to you each night, (even though you cant hear me, because you take out your hearing aides lol).
I love you more than life itself, and with thirty-four years behind us, Im hoping for another long life ahead of us both.
Im sure I wont live long enough for a Nursing Home. Simply because of my heart condition, and knowing your going to keep me alive as long as you can, because you dont want to be alone either, and I can understand that.
Our kids are grown, doing thier own thing, and all we have left, is each other.
Sure, they are still hanging around. Son is in his room, playing on his computer, and Daughter is out playing house with her boyfriend, but, there is still the two of us together, needing and wanting each other for as long as we can hold on, so, I will hold on to you my love as long as I can, just so that you wont be left alone for very long.
But, when the time comes, I hope you can leave me go...
This old heart is getting used up in a hurry, beating as fast as its going with my atrial fib, (you know it beats a whole lot faster than a normal heart, and just sitting down, it can beat fast enough to run a marathon for moments at a time, so, its getting tired out faster than a normal heart, but, you dont want to hear that, now, do you?).
I love you my dear, and shall always do so.
I just hope that you get to read all these posts when Im gone, if you should survive me long enough, just to keep you company, knowing my thoughts along the years...
I love you...
Jesse
Your sitting on your easy chair, sleeping, and looking so peaceful. You make me love you more each day, just being there and being yourself all the time.
Your leg pain is getting worse, from your diabetes, so now, the Emergency Room has prescribed you vicodin too!
What in the World is happening to us, my love?
We wanted to spend the 'Golden Years' of our marriage, traveling, camping, and all those other plans we made before we were this age...
Now, with my back and poor health, and your diabetes and nerve pains, and other bad health ailments that you have, we are two broken down old folks who havent completed our dreams.
I reckon that a lot of folks are feeling the way we are now, but, its not the way I want to feel.
I want to feel the beach beneath my feet, with a pole in my hand, and a fish at the end of it LOL, and you by my side, sunning yourself and reading a book!
No Grandkids yet, though, we did have our kids late in life, and with all the health issues that our kids have, I dont think any of them want to have kids to pass them on to.
So, whats in store for us now? We grow old, take our medications for all the ailements we collect through out the remaining years, and die? This really sucks! sheesh!
I didnt work all those years, to get you a pension, so that you could spend it with me, a boken down old fool, who spent too much time at work, earning a living so my Wife and Family could eek out a living on my income and enjoy themselves at my expense, only to have it wasted on our old age.
As I watch you draw breath, going in and out of your body, Im left to wonder, will you out live me? I sure hope so! I hope you draw one more breath than I do, so I dont have to miss you when I die, and, so that you wont have time to miss me when I go too, and, that you will be with me in Heaven. But, remember, Heaven can always wait for another Angel in thier midst, so, take your time 'living', and I will take my time to enjoy your company as I do each and every day.
You make my World, from start to finish, I look upon you in the morning, and say good night to you each night, (even though you cant hear me, because you take out your hearing aides lol).
I love you more than life itself, and with thirty-four years behind us, Im hoping for another long life ahead of us both.
Im sure I wont live long enough for a Nursing Home. Simply because of my heart condition, and knowing your going to keep me alive as long as you can, because you dont want to be alone either, and I can understand that.
Our kids are grown, doing thier own thing, and all we have left, is each other.
Sure, they are still hanging around. Son is in his room, playing on his computer, and Daughter is out playing house with her boyfriend, but, there is still the two of us together, needing and wanting each other for as long as we can hold on, so, I will hold on to you my love as long as I can, just so that you wont be left alone for very long.
But, when the time comes, I hope you can leave me go...
This old heart is getting used up in a hurry, beating as fast as its going with my atrial fib, (you know it beats a whole lot faster than a normal heart, and just sitting down, it can beat fast enough to run a marathon for moments at a time, so, its getting tired out faster than a normal heart, but, you dont want to hear that, now, do you?).
I love you my dear, and shall always do so.
I just hope that you get to read all these posts when Im gone, if you should survive me long enough, just to keep you company, knowing my thoughts along the years...
I love you...
Jesse
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