I found a single marble in the front yard today

It may not seem odd that someone has found something in their yard that seems to be out of place however, in my yard it is a surprise that something as simple as a marble was found.

You have to understand that those who lived in this house before me were not stellar residents by anyone's stretch of the imagination. So I find things in my yard all the time, especially after it has rained which it did this morning. A short list of things found is as follows, 6 wrenches, a windshield for an old vehicle, rubber hose, tarp straps, siding, chicken wire, old pieces of fence, beer bottles, screwdrivers, nuts, bolts, washers, cotter pins, pieces of roofing, tarp paper, plastic wrap and the list does go on but this gives you an idea of how the property here is.

The fact that I found the marble is not what is odd, the fact that it is a marble which is unlike all of the other things I have found over the last 1.5 years of living here. All of the other things were useful at one time. There was a specific purpose for those items. The tools have obvious uses as well as the windshield, rubber hose, tarp straps and all the nuts, bolts, washers and cotter pins that have been found and have yet to be found. The marble though has no specific purpose on this property. There were no children living here so it was not part of a game. As far as I know there were no grand children that visited either so I will guess this marble is not from a game or a set of marbles found in an old leather pouch with a thin leather tie to hold them all.

So what is the purpose of this marble? It is very pretty but not very big. It was next to the tomato plants I have in what used to be a flower bed in the front yard. It looks like it has a ribbon flowing through the center of the marble. It is shiny now that I have washed all the mud off of it. I don't know where it has been, what it has been doing or how long it could have possibly been under the earth waiting for a good rain to bring it to the surface to be found.

Is that how archeologist find things the first time? Does something just 'appear' from under the earth after a shift in the wind, a shift in the tide, a shift in the earth? I honestly don't know and as interesting at it sounds I doubt I do any further research to find out. It is just a question that entered my mind.

Is there a reason I found this marble today? Who knows really why I found it, maybe I found it for no particular reason. Maybe I will find out the reason some other time; again not a huge concern that I will dwell on past this moment I'm sure.

The question that comes to mind as the result of finding this marble is what other things have I 'found' that were out of place.
I have been wondering about this on and off all day today and I truly cannot come up with anything that strikes me immediately.

Perhaps someone else can come up with something they have found. I can come up with plenty of times I have 'felt' out of place but that really isn't the same thing I don't think. I 'felt' out of place in school most of the time. I 'felt' out of place at a couple jobs I have had in the past. Actually out of place is not as good of a description as feeling like the 'outsider'. I 'felt' out of place here on this forum, not on the blogs but a different part of the forum. I asked a simple question and read nothing but what I felt was rejection and discouragement from almost all of the comments that were left.

I was already an 'outsider' without ever leaving the chair in my office. How could that be determined or judged from one simple question in one post? I can honestly say I was quite surprised and shocked at the type of comments left. It was like being the little fat girl in 4th grade all over again and being chosen last for kick ball just because they were 'forced' to choose me. What a dreadful feeling for me reading all of the comments that were posted.

I did try very hard to get the forum back on topic several times and that endeavor failed miserably so I quit posting any further replies to the comments that had been left. I did leave one last post telling anyone who cared to read it why I was not posting further regarding the topic. How sad to discourage someone with assumed ideas as to what sort of person they might be from one simple question posted on one forum.

They don't know me, or my background, or my dreams or desires or even remotely know who I am. Yet it seemed perfectly fine to them to post their comments of rejection and discouragement. Then accuse me of asking for said rejection and discouragement and getting upset when they responded the way they did. Those who posted put the blame on me to justify their own words. Again I was surprised at how easily the blame came to their fingers and ended up on the screen in front of them.

It made me realize that Sneakers and I would no longer pursue that part of the country to make our new home and live our lives there. Yes, I made the same assumption they did just from reading their words however, their words were strong enough to make me feel that I did NOT belong and never would belong no matter how many years I lived there.

So what marble have you found lately? Did you wonder what the past was for that particular marble? Did you pick it up and keep it? Have your words written anonymously on a screen and posted for all the world to read if they choose to made someone 'feel' like an outsider? Have words you have written to others in a note or a letter been the best words to use? Have you received a reply, comment or letter that made you 'feel' like the outsider? Is assumption about anything really a valid logical thought process to use? Isn't it better to try and get to know someone before an assumption is made?

Even in the anonymous world of the World Wide Web getting to know someone who can be anyone they want through words will generally remain the same throughout numerous conversations. At some point it is very hard to continue to remember all the lies that one has told if they have told them and they start telling the truth.

Lies, cheating, deceit, games, all human actions that cause another human to react and for what reason? I truly don't know but I do know I try very hard not to participate in any form of any of the above. The truth is the best no matter how much the truth may hurt to hear or have to tell someone. In the end it is the truth and the truth will set everyone involved free.

Ponder that one for a while if you choose but remember this is my truth and no candy coating is involved.

More later ~~~~~~~