Just up to a year ago, I was always selfish. I didn't think beyond my own pain. Others would say that I used to be a completely closed off and withdrawn and even avoidant.

At the same time, there was this sense of loneliness that I was trying to deny. Even though, I was not that bad to be around, I wanted to make sure that any of my interactions with others were brief so I don't bring them down in some way.

Also, I paid very little attention to any idea that anyone...