Every human being deserves and needs safety.
It's also extremely important for every human being to learn how to love them self completely.
You're no exception.
you don't deserve the crap you're going through.
I think you need an advocate.
You found this website ... keep searching the web and find someone in your area that helps handicaped and mentally or emotionally, or cognitively challenged people get their own residence.
- Yes you CAN go to school.
- Yes you can go to college.
- Yes you can find work
- You can have friends
- You can have a love relationship
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The Center for Independent Living is excellent. I don't know if there's one in your area, but find one and call them ... regardless which state their in, and ask for advice.
(There's a great one in Berkeley, California.)
Your mom sounds like she's overwhelmed and overstressed. She probably is not in the mental space to provide good boundaries for the home. So ... this is like life giving you a wake-up call ... go out and live it.