I've been with my ex for 4 years now.
This waa my first lover. I still do love and care for her more than anything.
Around christmas, she told me that we have been broken up since october, I was really shocked to hear that becuase she tell me that around christmas.
Whats even worse is that she's fallen in love with another man since november.
and she tell me this now.
Im really pissed off, she dont even want to talk to me, her man made her block me on every contact way to her.
She's been playing games with my heart for 2 months.
Nice way to start the new years huh.
Finding out that all this happen made me very mad.
I got in cotact with her one night, and i didnt say anything mean to her, I just ask her why she did it after so long, she busted out in tears saying thats shes sorry and that she still loves me.
She also said that this new guy gives her butterflies in her stomach and treats her right.
I guess the way i loved her was wrong.
Now when i tried to talk to her, she wont even pick up my call.
I try to avaoid her but i cant really do it much at this point.
My heart feels like theres a nail going theought it right now.
We were highschool sweet hearts, After highschool, i went to work and she went to college.
She met the guy there, they were friends, then all this happen.
I was always there for her, even middle of the night I would go buy her food, she lives just 10 min away from me( walking distance) and this new guys live miles away.
I did all i could for her, yet it wasnt enough.
I guess this is my fault for now being tthere at school with her.
Now i found out the guy she dated for one month is getting married in two years with her.
They already have invitations send out, sadly i didnt recieve one.
I tired going to her house, she answered, she started tearing up and bit and said i cant be there or else she'll call the popo on me.
She was my first for everything, my first lover, my first date was with her, kiss, sex, everything was with this woman.
I cant even call her, facetime her, message her on fb or email. she blocked me everywhere and said i should move on..
I know you guys will say to move on, but at the same time i want to and i dont want to.
Is there any chance I might be able to be with her again?
I kinda keep messging her for the past couple days which i know is bad.
But yea, please any advice..