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Originally Posted by Escort Rider
Only one poster has discussed that article, which I found to be superbly well-written, haunting, and inexpressibly sad. The part of it which is especially gut-wrenching is that the woman who took her own life had two daughters who were 10 and 12 at the time. One would think that she would want to spare them that pain. Perhaps she did want to but her own pain was more than she could bear. It's a great mystery, and an impossibility to understand what is going on in someone else's mind.
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I read an article last year--I think it was in a copy of Vogue--I was waiting for my car to be serviced and so I don't have it.
The author was a woman who was married and had three children. Her daughter, who was only about three, was diagnosed with terminal cancer. The little girl died about two years later. The woman was unable to cope with her grief, went into a severe depression and tried to commit suicide. She was hospitalized for a couple of years before finally beginning to get better after ECT. Meanwhile, her husband was left alone to care for their remaining young sons. He was very angry at her for putting her illness on him and leaving him to parent alone while he was also grieving for their daughter. The author said it took time, but he agreed to try to repair the marriage and they were back together after she was released from the hospital.
One thing she said really stuck with me. It was along the lines of "From where I am now, I can see how someone could view my desire to end my life as selfish, that I wasn't thinking of my husband or my other children. However, at the time of my suicide attempt and hospitalization,
I was not CAPABLE of even having such a thought. The only thing I could think of was how to find a way to end the pain."